2018 was completely shit!
My mental health basically held me prisoner for the whole of the year and I don't want that to turn into 2 years.
I feel like I am not getting the support I need from hcps, Cmht. But I'm struggling to articulate what I want from them.
I see my cpn once s fortnight. We talk, make plans, which rarely come to fruition.
I've had problems with meds and I'm currently on yet another antidepressant (mirtazipine) which is working in some ways but not others.
But it's also apparently a horrible one to come off which is not something I feel I can cope with at the moment as I'm almost the most ill I've ever been.
I was also prescribed pregabalin some months ago but reading about it and some feedback on here has honestly put me off. The last thing I need is to start on something that could make me worse
I was on an anti depressant that worked very well for me for several years but I developed a sort of allergy to it and could not take it any more.
I need help to find an antidepressant (or other meds) that works for me but I feel I'm not being heard by those that can sort this, especially regarding the anxiety I have with starting new ones - there's no reassurance just "well we won't know till you try them" yea great I'll just be a bloody Guinea pig then.
They're also expecting me to make improvements when I know of old if I try to do this in certain areas without the right med support if anything it sets me back.
I'm putting this very badly I think.
Basically I'm stuck and I don't feel like I'm getting the help I need but I don't know what to ask for and how.
So if you're someone who's majorly improved their mental health or is someone with knowledge in this area (especially the meds) then I'd really like to hear from you.
I need to turn things around but I've no idea how and I think even the people supposed to know and be helping are stuck too.