Is this psychosis?

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I feel like I'm waiting on the mother ship, someone to take me home. This isn't my planet. I've thought this for a while. I don't know if this is me bordering on psychosis or just me being silly. Does anyone else get like this?

I was hanging out my window like Pliny for them.

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When I was younger I had an overwhelming feeling I shouldn’t be here, like I was a shadow. It was something to do with depression and feelings of detachment. If you’re concerned or don’t feel right in yourself you need to speak to your GP.

If you don’t you’ll end up back on MN asking of AIBU to go to A&E having fallen out of a window waiting to be beamed up.

I see your dp home with you? You sound like you need someone there.

Have you taken your night time medication? If not then do that so you can sleep. Contact your MH
team in the morning and let them know.

My DP is here. I've told him, he just said to go to bed as I have to be up at 4:30am. I contemplated ringing in sick as well don't feel fit to work.

Dissociation

www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/dissociative-disorders/#.XC0tnIiny9c

It's not silly and surprisingly common.

Are you going through a stressful time or has something triggered these feelings?

I was once in a town away from home and desperately wanted to get home. I live near a Homebase store and saw one there, and was quite adamant that if I went into that store I would walk out and be at home. It disturbed the people I was with but for me it was quite a comfort, a kind of other worldliness?

Phone in sick, go to bed and rest.

If you’ve not had those symptoms before then it may just be a reaction to some meds. Just speak to the MH team in the morning .

Thank you for the link, that was very helpful, I have bipolar disorder, so I don't know if it's part of it or something else. My son will have to come with me obviously, although I do sometimes think he would be better here as he does my tits in sometimes.

I haven't taken my meds yet. I will though, but I don't like them.

Hello OP, we hope you don't mind us appearing on your thread but it was flagged up to us by other MNers who were a little worried about you.

We can see you're having a tough time at the moment. In these sorts of situations, what we usually do is add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

Best of luck.

OP could you perhaps contact your local crisis team and explain this to them? I think they would be able to advise you better and perhaps review your meds as you say that you don't like your evening ones.

From my untrained perspective I would say yes, this would be considered psychosis but I can also see that it may come more under the label of dissociation. I definitely think that a crisis team needs to speak with you. If you don't know their number, contact your nearest A&E or out of hours GP and they will be able to put you in contact.

Don't know about anyone else but it would make me feel better if you did that fairly soon. I know you're ok now but your partner is clearly not much help and it's probably better if you get yourself there in case you aren't capable later.

Thank you everyone for your replies. I am feeling a bit better now. It's not the first time I have felt like that. I just feel different from everyone else. I can get extremely paranoid as well to the point where I think I am in some kind of Trueman Show.

The other day I had my head phones in cleaning my DC's room and I heard a really loud whistle behind me. I thought it was my DP coming home early as he usually whistles to let me know he's there. I turned round and nothing. Really frightened me. Took me a while to calm down. It was so loud and very distinct.

I’m glad you’re feeling a little better today.

Have you phoned your MH team? Hopefully they’ll advise you what to do if it happens again.

I don't want to ring them because I feel like an idiot. It can feel so real, then once I rationalise it, I feel stupid that I even thought it.

Did you take your meds yet op?

Honestly, they’ve heard all sorts, they will not think you stupid at all.

It’s best to bite the bullet and phone them.

If you really feel you can’t then could your DP phone them on your behalf, explain the situation so it’s easier for you when you take the phone?

I don't want to bother the mental health team. I've texted a crisis number about this before and they were useless. I have a therapy session tomorrow.

I've taken my sertraline, I haven't taken my aripiprazole. I took it last night, which konked me out.