New Year / Post Christmas depression?

[falko89]

Does anyone else find Christmas / New Years really difficult? I tend to get really down this time of year and can't figure out why.

I do suffer from anxiety and depression and most of the time I am fine with no problem, probably because I am working and mostly busy, when holidays come so does my problems.

The Christmas I was fine up until Christmas day then the low mood set it and its remained since. This morning New Years days is the worse I've felt in a while, rather than feeling joyus for the New Year I feel really low, add to that holidays all over, weather is crap, damn all to look forward to for months. Meh

Yes! new Year's Day is the worst. Everyone being all positive which just makes me want to bury myself in a hole and howl

Yes I really struggle. I don't know what it is. My birthday is between Christmas and new year so when I was younger I always felt that was it, nothing else to look forward to for another year. It's different now I'm older and have children but the feeling is still there.

I find myself getting annoyed by the posts on social media- people talking about all the wonderful things they've done in the past year and how they can't wait to see what the next year holds. Or those who say they've had a terrible year but just know that next year will be better. I always think it's just going to be more of the same, how is next year going to be much different to the last?! Another year where I say I'll lose weight but don't. Another year where I want to have work done around the house but won't because we still don't have the money. Another year closer to secondary school for my son, he has ADHD so I worry constantly about his school life and future. Another year of the day to day rubbish on repeat- school runs, work, after school clubs, housework.

Yes, I think thats it. Another year of the same old same old crap. Over Christmas etc you can sort of switch off a bit and forget about the day to day crap, but now its New Years day and its back to reality again.

Yes I also got pissed of by people on social media going over what they've done, but what's worse is posting about what they intend to achieve and they probably will which makes me feel worse as I'll achieve damn all.

@qumquat Yes its sickening. All this positivity when I feel the opposite. I don't find anything to be cheery about and i'm back to work soon after 2 weeks off, not something I find joy in.

I've gone to the pub to do some marking (teacher) and have some alone time. I can't bear to be with my family because I think I might have to leave. I was bingeing last night and this morning so feel very ill. Absolutely it's the fact that this year will be exactly the fucking same as all the others which is the problem.

I hear you. Single eight years, hardly any family, so Christmas is a bit shit, and as a close friend died on Christmas Eve when I was 17 it's always a melancholy time regardless of the rest of it. New Year's is the same, tend to spend it with the same friends (who are lovely) but they are all couples and I am just me and I notice the loneliness more at this time of year. People do the whole "you never know what's around the corner" shit for new year - yes I do, as I can see no reason why it would be any different to the last 7.