Been over 24 hours since my ex partner left very complex situation regardless of what he done he was the love of my life and I genuially can’t see a way forward right now I feel so betrayed and let down basically I posted few weeks back due to his second sucide attempt and more recent Sunday due to the increasing abuse since these attempts and threats now he’s gone he’s a different person don’t know if he actually was the person he portrayed in first place I feel desperate for even still caring but I had a difficult childhood and early adult life iv had a lot of trauma and felt like he was the first person genuine to love me the stuff he done for me I could have only have been wished off before now I’m left alone hurt I don’t have big family network or my friends just don’t understand every ones attitude is get up and go I was their for him through his darkest times and no ones their for me I feel like I’m constantly punished for being abused by full life I don’t know how I’m going to get through an other day these feelings are so horrible and lonely 💔sorry for rant