Sitting here feeding my 6 month old beautiful boy and I’m crying and I can’t stop. My partner just picked me up on being defensive again for something or other. I do or say something defensive or not in support of what he says and then he Goes off on one and today he looked at me like he’s disgusted with me, like I’m a piece of shit on ground. I can’t help but get upset, I always get tearful and I can’t stpp myself. How do I get help for being a defensive person? Why am I this way? I feel like I’m shit and horrible and useless to everyone. I don’t feel depressed every day but most days i can’t handle stress well if it occurs and there is so much negatives about me and hardly any good things. I’ve got friends but none of which know the real me I guess. So many things wrong I don’t know where to start. I just wish I had someone to talk to right now