I need a rant and some advice. I am currently on sick leave with anxiety and depression with instructions from the doc to have time to myself. I have an 11 month old who goes to daycare (though not at the moment over xmas) and my husbands work is shift based. We live in Denmark (i'm British, he's Danish). We went to the in laws for xmas, 2 days before that i was on my own with DS, and now I have 2 days alone with DS again.
DS has been ill with fever all xmas and is still ill, and its been hard. On top of the anxiety and depression and doing all the packing and unpacking for our trip and all the tiny things that make me feel like I cant cope, I'm trying to adjust to being pregnant with no.2 (am 9 weeks).
Yesterday I made it clear to DH that I was feeling like crap and couldn't cope being on my own and that I needed help today. He has the option of taking child sick days with full pay and I know that he could have just called and done this. BUT he said he didnt want to let his team down during these days between xmas and new year and that he had to go to work. This morning I woke up and found that hed just gone to work without even saying goodbye, helping me get DS up and giving him his medicine etc, which triggered a panic attack. Called him in tears and left an angry WTF?? text. I feel like ive been abandoned and left trapped. What do I do? :(