Want to go home for Christmas... Just need a moan/handhold

[Fermatslittletheorem]

Not sure where to start or even what I expect anyone to say.

I'm currently in the psych hospital on a section 3 and constant observations. They're drugging me and also have performed surgery against my wishes (claiming I've no capacity, and it was in my best interests - used the same reasoning for detaining me)

All the staff are being so lovely and I feel guilty that they feel they have to sit with me and follow me round 24/7. I am so desperate to go home. My sister has come from NZ and I haven't seen her for over a year and a half. And now I am locked up.

How can I get off observations and then discharged or at least on leave for Christmas? I keep telling them I have no desire to hurt myself, let alone kill myself (all true).

I feel so lonely and scared and getting sad now. My mood is generally fine but I'm getting really sad and frustrated being stuck here. I know it's not hopeless and I'll get out eventually (this is my fourth admission this year and I don't tend to stay long), but it's Christmas and I have work to do for uni and want to see my family so badly.

I think the doctor said he'll talk to me on Friday but they keep promising stuff like they'll review my observations tomorrow, and then every day they say nothing is changing. I feel like no one is listening to me, even though they are being really kind. It's always just platitudes and sedation.

As I say, I don't know what anyone can say, just please can someone say they hear me. I know there are other people in hospital on this board, how do you deal with it? The endless waiting and no one listening or doing anything? Please is anyone there?

Aww sweet I don't have any advice or suggestions but I read your post and didn't want to leave you with no response. Can your family not come to see you in hospital? I'm sorry if I offend, but I'm not sure how hospitalisation works x

Thanks so much for your reply mrsbrooks. My parents have come in a few times, but I normally spend much longer with them. Also I can't see my niece as she is only two so can't come in.

My parents can't come for a few days now. I really just want to be at home. Not sure if my sister will come in. I feel guilty to her as she will want to go out with me and stuff.

I'm just tired and a bit emotional stuck in here.

Thanks again for responding. And of course you haven't offended me.

Hey,

Offering a hand to hold @Fermatslittletheorem

When I was in hospital depending how I felt I did the following to pass the time:

(1) read a dystopian novel. Not sure I would recommend this to everyone, but it helped me;
(2) drew and painted. I like to draw. I drew things around me. Those pictures are evocative when I look back on them;
(3) did a lot of things like Suduko and similar puzzles;
(4) talked to student nurses who sometimes had more time for talking;
(5) wrote lots of letters to people and got a lot back (this was when was in hospital twenty years ago, and communication via the internet was not so easy from the ward) People were so revealing in their letters to me, I had all the gossip!

I can see if I can think of more suggestions.