Hello. I am 21 years old and have a 11 month old little girl. I have a very loving and attentive partner and he is a great dad. My family are also there to speak to but I don't think they fully understand how bad my mental state has got.
I have had anxiety for about 6 years now started with exam stress and worked it's way up to panic attacks after I had my daughter. I suffered from gallstones 1 month after giving birth but was having attack through my pregnancy were I had to be hospitalised. The doctors thought it was strokes/blood clots/ even heart attacks but couldn't figure out what it was till almost a year later. I could not sleep and I think this started my problem.
Now 11 months on , my daughter does not sleep through the night (can be up ever 30 mins) so its safe to say I'm sleep deprived. I still have anxiety and self worth issues. Recently in the past 2 months I have been getting over walking emotions anger and hatred towards myself.
I recently started hitting myself I'm the face usually when I feel I have messed something up. I have done this before when I was about 17 but I thought I grew out if it.
I have cervix issues and am in pain most days of the week, I am waiting to go to the hospital for this but I don't want to go to the doctor out of fear they take my daughter away.
I don't know if it is a mental health issues but feel I need help to cope emotionally.