Anxiety seems to have crept up upon me over the past few years and it feels like it’s taking me over. It started a few years ago I guess, I didn’t realise, but was under redundancy threat. Fast forward and made redundant last year and it’s spiralled. Took ages to find a job, really struggled with confidence after so many knock backs. I work alongside two others that openly have anxiety issues and feel this hasn’t helped. Their worries have intensified mine. I’m stressed at home as I’m overwhelmed by housework and jobs that need doing, Christmas approaching and so much to do, my mum is terminally ill and although she’s quite a distance away I’m trying to support her and my dad. I’ve been seconded to another department to help out every afternoon but don’t have a regular desk there. The desk swap has to be done in my own time and I’ve had IT issues from swapping work stations which has made me late starting (I’ve been there ready and wiling) and I’m having to repay the time. Silly I know but that’s the rules. I hate it and I’m just struggling to be there. My manager is very strict, others in the same role, different manager, are given 10 minutes leeway per day. I think this has tipped me this week- I can’t sleep, feel nauseous all the time, crippling headache, I’m absolutely terrified of going into work today. My head is constantly being filled with irrational thoughts. last night we took the kids to the cinema, I was hoping to relax a bit but I kept worrying that the house was being burgled. Driving home I was constantly fearful that we’d crash. I’ve tried to take 5 htp before but as I’m hrt, they made me even worse. Help.