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The Bipolar Support Thread

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BippityBoppity87 · 05/12/2018 11:46

Hi everyone Smile Just thought I'd start a shiny new thread for anyone who is suffering from bipolar disorder.

Hope everyone is ok!

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BippityBoppity87 · 28/03/2019 18:50

Yeah it’s a Facebook group. Only a small one though but they are saying I have bpd. And not actually bipolar and basically I’m just attention seeking.

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Tomtontom · 28/03/2019 18:55

That's very unsupportive of them. Please ignore them, they don't know you or your condition.

Is there someone that you can talk to about your meds? Please don't stop them, going cold turkey is dangerous.

BippityBoppity87 · 28/03/2019 19:05

I was supposed to be going to London with them, but now I’m thinking it’s a bad idea. Probably a very bad idea. Is it normal to feel agitated and hyper at the same time? I don’t know whether I’m coming or going. I feel like I can’t calm down, I’ve been feeling like this all day. I don’t know whether I’m in crisis and need to ring someone as I just feel absolutely awful, agitated, hyper and just everything mixed into one big ball.

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BippityBoppity87 · 28/03/2019 19:07

Sorry, I just feel like I’m annoying everyone now. Sorry.

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BippityBoppity87 · 28/03/2019 19:10

But I’ve only just come out of hospital so they’ll probably think I’m just attention seeking. I don’t know what to do.

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Tomtontom · 28/03/2019 19:10

It's OK, I know that feeling well. Your brain just won't slow down even though you're asking it to.

Honestly, the people in that group are not kind and I definitely wouldn't be meeting them.

Are you safe? Do you have contact details for the crisis team if you feel unsafe?

BippityBoppity87 · 28/03/2019 19:16

I’m safe, my partner is with me. I have a meeting with my therapist tomorrow so I’ll tell her all this tomorrow. I’ve been brutally honest with my psychiatrist and he has said bipolar, no mention of bpd. Although everyone on the group are saying I am. So now I don’t know what to believe

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AyahuascaTrip · 29/03/2019 07:09

Ignore those fuckers, what do they know? Trust your doctors, they’ve not only been treating you for a while but are actually qualified to diagnose and are much more likely to have your best interests at heart.

AyahuascaTrip · 29/03/2019 07:20

Haven’t been here for years but the bipolar uk e-community was always well moderated, the real life support groups were good too.

ecommunity.bipolaruk.org

notaflyingmonkey · 29/03/2019 09:03

Hi all, hope you don't mind me joining you. My teenage son was diagnosed as bipolar this week. It wasn't a shock, as I had pretty much come to that conclusion already, but my heart is breaking for him as I feel he has been so badly let down.

He started displaying hyper behaviour last year, which pretty quickly got him kicked out of 6th form. I kept saying to anyone and everyone that he was going through a MH crisis, but was treated as a overindulgent mother (I'm not!). CAMHS were useless to the point where I feel rage at how bad they were. At the point he was seen he was talking about suicide and describing what was clearly a psychotic episode, and they discharged him. Since then I have gone round in circles trying to get him the help he needed, and got nowhere.

Either myself or DH has to stay at home with him while he is in a depression, but they are preferable (to me) than his manic episodes when he is a danger to himself as he loses all sense of danger, appropriate behaviour, etc and I feel like I can't breath until he comes home safe. He gets through money like water, and is an easy target to any and every phishing scam going.

If it was clear to me in September that he may have been bipolar, why has it taken over 7 months and me going private to get him a diagnosis? I feel angry at all of the services and agencies that let him down. But need to regroup my energies into supporting and helping him. I also need to confess that I haven't always been as supportive as I could have been, when I have responded to some of his actions with anger, rather than recognise that he was really unable to stop himself.

The physiatrist was diagnosed him has started him on 2.5mg of Olanzapine, to be reviewed in a month.

I appreciate that this thread is really for those who have bipolar, but I hope you don't mind me gatecrashing while I look for ways to support him.

DiaryofWimpyMumm · 29/03/2019 10:42

@notaflyingmonkey I don't mind you being here at all. My son suffers from depression, I'm very watchful over him but thankfully he doesn't seem to have bipolar. He is only 14 though.

@BippityBoppity87 don't listen to people in the groups, they shouldn't really be giving out medical advice anyway. I hope you're okay, I usually get a message to say someone has posted on this thread but I didn't get any last night. Listen to your doctors not groups on Facebook.

BippityBoppity87 · 29/03/2019 11:20

I spoke to my cpn today and she said I definitely don’t have bpd. 100% bipolar and the reason I’ve been up and down like a yo-yo is due to meds, stress and pms. Which explains a lot.

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DiaryofWimpyMumm · 29/03/2019 11:35

People are too quick to put bipolar into BPD and they don't really know anything themselves. Listen to the professionals.

I just got a letter from my psychiatrist for my ESA. It reads Mrs Diaryhss bipolar affective disorder and requires continual antidepressants and antipsychotic medication.the illness has been so severe it has affected her levels of confidence, self esteem memory and overall cognitive functioning. She also suffers significant anxiety this means she cannot manage new or busy situations without significant deterioration in her mental health.

She will clearly find the benefit process or indeed any process cause stress for her to be overwhelming. I therefore feel that she will be unfit to attend any assessment appoints but may manage a home visit if undertaken in a sympathetic manner.

Please contact me bls bla bla

I'm hoping it puts them off giving me an assessment

BippityBoppity87 · 29/03/2019 14:33

Thank you @DiaryofWimpyMumm I actually broke down in tears to my cpn today, I’ve never done that before. I am quite hormonal at the moment, which probably isn’t helping and the med changes. So it’s been a bit of a roller coaster to say the least.

They also told me (in that group) that my drug combination sertraline, lamotrigine and aripiprazole are used to treat people with bpd and not bipolar.

Gosh I could have written that myself. That’s pretty much exactly like me.

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BippityBoppity87 · 29/03/2019 14:35

I also have adjustment disorder so I can see how that can be confused with bpd.

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banskuwansku · 29/03/2019 14:40

I have had bipolar and bpd diagnosis and diagnosis as well. I am not a clear case and I have all sort of symptoms.

My friend has bpd and she really is one. Her life is a chaotic drama all the time. I am not like that.

BippityBoppity87 · 29/03/2019 14:49

What are your symptoms @banskuwansku?

Mine are;
Spending a ridiculous amount of money.
Depressed (a lot) and can last months
Stress is a big trigger for me as well as not being in a routine
I’ve had past trauma
Hypomania when I was put on sertraline (in its own) which lasted about 3 months
Paranoia
Easily distracted
Get ridiculously bad pms
Had pnd when my son was born
Self harm
Alcohol problem

I’m sure there’s more but that’s the main ones

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BippityBoppity87 · 29/03/2019 14:52

Anxiety that’s another one

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AyahuascaTrip · 29/03/2019 14:54

I’m very bpd-y (not officially but I am) and I’d never be allowed anywhere near that combination of drugs! People are idiots. There’s no such thing as a bipolar drug (maybe aside from lithium but even that has other uses too) and I’m glad your cpn was able to put your mind at ease.

Hi notaflyingmonkey and welcome, of my three children (all adults now) one has a diagnosis of bipolar and one has had an isolated episode of mania (antidepressant induced). I’ve had some fun with CAMHS over the years!

Good letter diary 😊 hope it does the trick. My gp and psych could not have been less helpful if they’d tried, it’s no thanks to them I got PIP.

BippityBoppity87 · 29/03/2019 14:56

Yeah I was told if lamotrigine didn’t work, he was going to put me on lithium.

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DiaryofWimpyMumm · 29/03/2019 15:08

That's really bad of them saying that about your medications. I've been on your combination previously but couldn't sleep so was changed to olanzapine.

I'm sorry they upset you so much but I'm pleased you were able to talk to your CPN about it. I have terrible time with my hormones just now. My period stopped for 7 months then started again yesterday and I had to go for a knee x ray so had to take my trousers off. I was mortified and in agony. So pleased it's over.

BippityBoppity87 · 29/03/2019 15:20

I’m just feeling absolutely awful. I’ve been depressed since I came out of hospital. So about 3/4 weeks now? And I’m having really bad thoughts. Negative ones and I can’t shift it.

Oh gosh that’s sounds stressful! I have problems with my knee too. Been going on for 3 years now. So that’s not helping matters either!

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DiaryofWimpyMumm · 29/03/2019 18:10

I'm definitely hormonal. My 19 year old son can be really rude and I just snapped at him and told him how rude he was, normally I just let it go.

BippityBoppity87 · 30/03/2019 08:55

Morning everyone.

I don’t know what’s going on with me but I feel like like I’m on the verge of a mental breakdown. I feel very stressed, but hyped up at the same time. Feel like I could burst into tears, shakey racing thoughts. Hardly slept can’t keep on a simple task. Keep forgetting what I’m doing.

Is this anxiety? I have an appointment with my psychiatrist a week on Monday so I will explain all this to him. But right now I just need some advice.

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BippityBoppity87 · 30/03/2019 08:56

This has been going on for a few days now. I feel like an absolute mess. And quite suicidal.

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