The Bipolar Support Thread

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Hi everyone Just thought I'd start a shiny new thread for anyone who is suffering from bipolar disorder.

Hope everyone is ok!

Yes you have to go to hospital if you're a risk to yourself or others. Do you have your own room? I hope you're not too bored.

I’m ok. Not too bored, have headphones to listen to some music. Might have a nap. From what everyone has told me, it’s hard to get admitted is that true? Or can it not take much these days? Because it didn’t take long tbh.

Yeah have my own room and en-suite

I think it depends on the area but you wouldn't be admitted if they didn't think you needed it.

Glad you've got your own room, if you get bored get DP to bring you some magazines or a good book.

Do they have any classes you can attend? I've never been in hospital for my bipolar so not sure what it's like.

Some person I’ve been talking to on fb has called me an attention seeker and that I like to be centre of attention, and that I’m having a breakdown and it’s not a bipolar episode. Like he’s a fucking psychiatrist.

Think there is, but I’m just so angry right now

Can you block him? You don't need that kind of negativity in your life just now.ever

I think I will, the last thing I need right now.

I was in last autumn with anxiety and depression (though the anxiety lifted as soon as I got there). Made some scones on the ward with the Occupational Therapist , did some painting in the OT department, and evenwent to the hospital gym for half an hour. I did have force myself, and didn't enjoy it much at the time, but I did retrospectively IYSWIM. Also attending Sunday service in the chapel can be quite nice even if you are not a believer. There was even a volunteer with a petting dog, although they were only on the ward for 10 mins. Sounds like a lot but it really wasn't. People watched a load of soaps and quizzes.

Anyway, I wish you all the best, hang on in there

I suffer more with anxiety than anything else. CAB called me yesterday to see how I got on with my PIP assessment, when I told them I got standard rate they said I could try for enhanced rate if I feel I'm getting worse.

In other news I was walking downstairs carrying 2 duvet covers. My foot somehow got caught in the cover I tripped and fell downstairs. Twisted my kneecap so can't walk. I just got the boys a takeaway pizza each and my eldest told me to go and lie down. I'll see how it is tomorrow and night phone the docs if it's still as bad.

Hope you had a restful night bippoty are they changing your meds at all?

Hi bippitty sorry to hear you've been admitted, hope you feel better soon...

I'm feeling quite depressed just overwhelmed with everything really, I just phoned in sick from work as I haven't showered for two days & haven't got the energy to bother.
Also I'm feeling bitter about life generally.
Just fed up.

Oh gosh! Are you ok DiaryofWimpyMumm? I’m alright. Better than I was.
Can’t remember if I asked this, can’t tell my arse from my elbow sometimes my memory is atrocious, but is it quite difficult to get admitted?

I rung 111, had an assessment the same day and pretty much got admitted that same evening 🤷‍♀️

I was speaking to someone from a bipolar fb page, saying how much distress I was in and everyone was saying you won’t get admitted, you’re not bad enough blah blah blah and if I think I need to be in hospital they won’t admit me. And oh look where I am now

I’m ok tierraJ probably in the best place just now, at least I’m safe. Sorry this might be triggering, but the other night, think it was Sunday I had a breakdown, burst into tears because I couldn’t sleep and actually considered ways I could end it all in here. The nurses managed to calm me down and give me some diazepam though and I’m feeling a lot better.

Oh no maybe having some time off work will do you some good? Your health comes first

If you're a risk to yourself you'll get admitted. They can't take the risk of you taking your own life. I've to go to the Royal to get an x ray. I can't walk. Managed to get my youngest out to school he had to bring his tie to me because I can't get downstairs. Can't believe I fell.

I don't think it's easy to be admitted in my area - I've been suicidal many times & had bad Psychosis but being admitted has never been mentioned!

Only once did I nearly get sectioned in 2012 when I had Psychosis & smashed my kitchen up the police were called & they said that if I stepped outside they would section me but as I was in my own home they couldn't section me indoors?

I realised now they were trying to help me & I wish they had because it took me months to recover from that psychotic episode on my own. The MH team were little help at the time except in doling out meds.

Now I have a great psychiatrist but despite having depression at times & having ongoing psychotic symptoms he never mentions hospital. I think it's because I take my tablets on time. Not sure.

I've fractured my knee ☹️

Oh no are you ok?

Yeah I got admitted been here for nearly a week now. I don’t think I was that bad who who knows 🤷‍♀️ Apparently I could have been having a mixed episode. If I was it was bloody horrendous. Never again.

I’m going to be getting a cpn too.

I'm ok thanks just a bit bored as I have to rest for a few weeks.

Mixed episodes are the worst. I've only ever experienced it once, it was just before I moved house. I was hypomanic but crying my eyes out at the same time. Thankfully it passed quite quickly.

That's good you have a CPN I've heard they can be very helpful.

Did you hear back from your PIP application yet?

It was awful. Got called self centred and an attention seeker. It was awful. The last thing I am is an attention seeker it really hurt me. I was really unwell and it just made me even more suicidal as I thought I was totally alone.

Yeah I’m glad I have one now. I haven’t been able to get my pip application done yet as I’m still in hospital, but my partner is going to bring it in for me tomorrow so I can get someone to help me fill it out in here.

Oh no, must be so bored!

Wee update;

Still don’t know when I’m getting out 🙄 but I’ve been switched to lorazepam as I said diazepam was going sweet fa. Asked for my aripiprazole to be increased as I’m still only on 5mg, which I’m assuming is doing nothing as well.

How is everyone else doing?

My brother was on lorazepam for a few months. I'm still on bed rest. I didn't listen and walked around most of yesterday then woke up in agony this morning. Thankfully I'm sleeping quite well just now.

Hope you're doing okay! Any word on when you'll get home yet? If you're in the hospital I think you're in, there were ovely little rabbits running through the grounds when I was there. A bit of wildlife smack in the middle of town.

Oh no hope you get better soon!

Nope, no mention of when I’ll be getting out. I’ve spoken to like three dr’s that’s it. That’s a week I’ve been in here now.

I’m in Morningside, Edinburgh. Heard of it? Not really much going on here tbf!

Hi I went back to work yesterday as the depression had lifted.

But I'm on an increasing dose of a new medication for my epilepsy & it's making me feel a bit spaced out!

I've got a date tomorrow evening so I need to be able to pretend I'm normal haha.

Good luck with the date tierra I've not been on s date in 4 years. I just gave up I think

Yes bippity that's my local hospital too. I live just outside Edinburgh. Look out for the rabbits and squirrels 🐿 in the gardens. So cute.

I thought I would be going to my parents for dinner tomorrow and get out this house for a few hours but my mum just texted saying it would be better if I rested as my nephews etc will be there and I may get hurt worse. So these 4 walls for the foreseeable.

Hello everyone :)

Mind if I join you? I have Bipolar 2 x

Hello shesgrownhorns!

Hi bippity are you still in hospital?

Hope you're recovering well wimpymum.

My date went quite well as he's asked me out again & still messaging me, I told him I have Epilepsy as I can't really hide it (I don't drive) & he was fine with that.
But i won't be telling him about the Bipolar / schizo affective disorder. Unless he becomes my boyfriend & I've been seeing him for ummm, a very very long time!!

I mean, when or if do you disclose these things? It's one thing admitting to a bit of depression but quite another to say ' I take anti psychotics for Psychosis'. I can't see myself admitting to that.
Even my best friends only know an edited version of the truth!