The Bipolar Support Thread

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Hi everyone Just thought I'd start a shiny new thread for anyone who is suffering from bipolar disorder.

Hope everyone is ok!

Having a really rough time, missing my kids, feeling so angry and frustrated. Barely leaving the house or eating properly. Just watching tv all day and having my mum look after me. No motivation, Lithium could take another 4 weeks to work. So so fed up, I posted but no one replied so thought I'd vent here. Utterly fed up 😢

So new to all this but was looking for a group to be able to chat in. I'm 30 and was diagnosed bipolar when I was 16 I stopped all meds till last year I started trileptal and Prozac for my bipolar and anxiety and depression. It seems as if they help sometimes bit when I get too stressed it seems less effective. Reason for the stress is im a CNA for a nursing home, a full time student doing my general education classes to apply to be a RN, I'm also a mom of 2 and a soon to be step mom as of July 2020 of 3 kids, I don't sleep much and my brain won't shut down for me to sleep. I'm just trying to figure out coping mechanisms for stress and dealing with my issues of bipolar. I also go to a couples counselor and another shrink for my meds and about to start another one for my bipolar/anxiety/depression. So yea sorry that's long.

Where are your kids? And use the kids as your motivation to do better.

Kids are at their dads while I 'get better'. Just feel like I'm existing not living, waiting for each day to pass. I only go out for appointments. I am trying but I can't run because I'm ill and have been for a month and that is my release. Just all feels so hopeless 😩

I know how you feel imamess feel much the same way. I'm just hoping when I go up to 100mg sertraline i will feel a bit better.

Can you go see your kids when you want? Get them over for a visit? Just something to. Cheer you up a bit. Or take s nice long bubble bath and get clean pjs on

Welcome to the thread Succubus0623.
It might be an idea to ask your Psychiatrist or GP about stress management course in your area, sometimes the have them specifically for bipolar sufferers .

Have you tried doing some gentle stretches imabloodymess? It might help you feel a little release.

If I see them everyone gets upset 😢 I have been told if I am better next weekend they can come home for the weekend which is fantastic but I'm scared I won't be up to it. I have to go out to counselling today but will have a bath and clean pjs when I get home. Feel very lonely 2, not many friends, especially ones that understand x

Imabloddymess what illness do you have if you don't mind me asking. And yeah I'm gonna try to see how new counselor goes next month. It's a new day so I'm gonna try to make the best of it.

I have bipolar 2, anxiety, sever depression and possible bpd x

Hi everyone.

I think I'm starting to feel down again. This is going to be my 4th shift in a row. I have been up since half 4 the past three days, up again tomorrow for 7am, drop my son off at nursery, then work again at 11am-8pm.

I'm starting to feel drained. I really don't want another depressive episode like last year, I couldn't go through that again, and I can't ring in sick as I feel that would be an over reaction. I might just ask if I can go home a bit earlier as I'm not coping.

Work related stress is usually quite a big trigger for me. I'm only part time, but even that can be hard sometimes.

Can your partner not take your child to nursery?

No he's working at 8am tomorrow and my son starts at 8am.

Just messaged my manager and asked if I can finish at 6pm instead and was told that was ok, my health comes first. Feeling a bit better now.

I had to fill out a disability form thing at work today. Has anyone else had to do this? If so, why does this need to be done? I didn't like it at all.

I wasn't working when diagnosed so haven't had to fill that out.

The key fob from my car has stopped working, the only way to get another is to somehow get it to the garage (can't even open doors) and pay £170 for another. Impossible. So I'm carless

I haven't been posting in Mumsnet much because I'm worrying myself dick about this assessment in 2 weeks.

I upped my sertraline to 100mg today. Not feeling much difference yet tbh

Hope you are all well (ish)

Oh no @DiaryofWimpyMumm I hope you're ok

I'm alright. Been a bit up and down. Just bought a pair of glasses on an impulse, but I really like them and I got a bonus so thought I wouldn't treat myself.

Yeah, it's every 2 months apparently and I gave them a copy of my sheet that I filled out about my symptoms and what the warning signs for me are, because unfortunately, like most people with bipolar I suppose, I don't realise I'm in an episode until it's gone full blown and too late.

I would rather there was at least managers to keep an eye on me, which is reassuring.

I'm on 100mg sertraline too, but it sent me a bit hypomanic on its own. Now with the antipsychotic I just feel a bit flat sometimes. I slept for 12 hours last night! Can't remember the last time I did that apart from when I was depressed. But I'm not depressed at the moment, think it's just the meds.

Glad you had a good sleep. It makes the world of difference. Sleep seems to be a big trigger for me. Thankfully atm I seem to be sleeping okay.

I think it's good your work are taking an interest in your well-being

Most of them have known me for years so I would like to think they know I'm not taking the piss, plus I suppose they have to cover themselves as well, as I've had quite a few melt downs at work over the past, pre diagnoses.

One time I cried for about an hour, almost walked out and wanted to take all my tablets. Probably would have done if I had them on me.

I think I might get one of those medical braclets once I've had my psych appointment and I know my meds will stay the same. Just because I've had run ins with the police before and I could barely speak. I would rather just show them the bracelet.

Also if anything was to happen if I was out. Hopefully it won't!

Yes I guess they could be a good idea. Let's the relevant people know.

My dad got my car going. It turned out that the battery was completely flat so it wouldn't even open the doors but we also have a key so we used that and it's all sorted now.

Think I'm now coming out of a mixed state episode. I've been extremely sad and depressed, thinking about dying but at the same time, extremely agitated and anxious, snapping at people and being aggressive. Finally ended with me having unprotected with a stranger, drinking and doing cocaine. I feel like I have no control over my body or actions, I'm an utter mess, I can't be trusted or left alone. I was hoping Lithium would be the answer, it's been 3 weeks and I feel worse than ever. Up and down like a rollercoaster, completely unstable and now recovering from the effects of a drink/drug binge, spending money I don't have. When will this nightmare end 😢

I've been awake since half 5, on my day off! This day is dragging like nagging, I can't believe how long I've been awake for, surprised it's the law. Been drinking rose wine and I thought I was just fine.

Going to order a KFC I think.

Lithium can take a few months until you're at therapeutic dose. I remember getting my bloods done every 3 weeks until I finally reached therapeutic dose at 900mg.

I had a lot of one night stands when I was first unwell. I would meet them on POF my boys used to go to my mums every weekend so I would meet some random guy.

I'm pleased that phase of my life has moved on. My boys are never away anymore anyway so can't be bringing men home!