Anxiety hit me like a tonne of bricks

[ragingchocoholic]

Thought I was finally doing ok and hadn't experienced any anxiety or depression since September and all of a sudden these last 2 days it's hit me. It's like I've been shot in the chest at point blank and I didn't see the shooter till after they shot me and I'm still staggering back from the shock.

In a matter of moments I went from a happy, bubbly woman to a scared, withdrawn girl who just wants to hide away. It happened so quickly I can't help but wonder if I was even happy before and if it were all just an illusion, a mask that I used to fool everyone including myself.

I don't know how to deal with this, I just need it to go away. I want to be happy, is that so much to ask for?

Don't let anxiety trick you into thinking you can't get better and feel ok again. It's all part of it. Know that you felt better before and can do so again. Has anything triggered it (an event, memory) or hormone changes (for me strangely I always feel at my worst AFTER my period.

Try and ride the wave, don't examine it too closely and take care of yourself.

Try some hypnosis on YouTube. I really like Michael Sealy ones and has brought me back from the brink of the panic-cliff many times. It’s not a cure all but certainly helps, escpecially with getting to sleep.