I've been off ADs for half a year or longer but I'm really struggling at the moment. I can't get an appointment with my gp - the only one who doesn't tell me to go exercise or find a job I love - because she's gone on holiday today and when she gets back I'll have to call for one in two weeks from then. The only other reasonable gp is on holiday too!
I've tried a lot of ADs over the last 20 years so don't want someone telling me to take something I know won't agree with me or causes problems or doesn't help.
Is there anyone else who can prescribe them? I have a support worker but she's just said I either wait or see a different doctor. I've seen the local MH team but all they've done is refer me for the support worker and signed me up for a mindfulness course (which I already practice at home).
I barely sleep because of anxiety. I don't know what to do. It just gets worse and I feel it's all hopeless. I can't go out due to anxiety. I managed to get to the gp yesterday with my partner because my gp was the emergency doctor but she'd been on a house visit so the waiting room was full of children and babies and stank of soiled nappies. After an hour I had a panic attack and had to leave. I can't face that again.
At the moment I wish they'd just admit me to a psychiatric ward and drug me up. Not an option obviously, my dd needs me for a start.
Sorry to ramble on. Does anyone know what I can do?