I was diagnosed with GAD and depression a year or two ago and had a course of antidepressants and CBT counselling. I feel like I have suffered with depression on and off throughout my life but never really accepted or admitted it.
In the last few months the up-and-down that is normal for me has gradually become a constant low feeling. I am feeling unmotivated, I feel stuck and unable to change. I am starting to feel really bad at work again, like everybody is against me and waiting for me to make mistakes. I am comparing myself unfavourably to other people and feel like I have made such a mess of my life and will never be able to sort it out.
I feel like I can’t cope with Christmas, I can’t bring myself to think about decorations or presents. I actually wish it was my exes year with my son as I feel like I can’t give him a good Christmas and he deserves better.