Hi all 
may turn in to a novel, apologies!
Back story
I lost my dad 17 years ago, when I was 16. I watched him decline & die an awful death fck cancer. My MH has never been the same. Then I decided an abusive relationship was the best thing, for 10 years. Yay me. That relationship has been over 9 years and now I'm happily married.
Now
I can feel it. It's coming back, and none of my usual self help techniques are working. I flip between suffering with anxiety & depression. My anxiety is shifting and I can feel the sadness taking over.
I am quite good at spotting the signs early enough for happy pills medication not to be necessary usually. But I can't seem to pull away from it.
I was just wondering what other self help or techniques anyone else who suffers, uses? I don't want to go back on the meds, the last lot they had me on, worked. But it was an anti psychotic and I find that embarrassing.
Also probably worth mentioning I have 6 kids so getting away or me time is difficult to find.
If you've made it this far.. thank you 