I'm wondering if anyone can relate?
I've had these for over twenty five years (diagnosed privately - NHS say I'm "just" borderline and that's it and consequently I'm not allowed any support because it makes borderline worse so there's nothing available with that diagnosis) but over the last few months they've become unbearable. I can't have meds due to my other conditions and now I've a throat growth which is partially blocking my throat and is worsened by panic and can lead to collapse. I've been told I just need to put up with these as they're meaningless - just feelings.
I've had therapy with techniques which isn't helping at all right now as the things I was taught like it can't harm me no longer apply as it is harming me!
I can't get my GP or anyone else to understand. A major trigger for me is medical and dental phobia and, I've literally been told today to get over it or I'll die and I'm terrified as I cannot just get over it. Over the years I've spent thousands on therapy and now my finances won't stretch to support, I struggle to pay my rent!
Added to this support I was having from a mental health social worker weekly is being stopped because they feel I'm being too needy between appointments relying on them too much (for context I rang twice in six weeks, both I was in a state needing support with something serious) and instead of seeing them anymore I "just" need some decent friends (yes they've chosen my lowest point since they were asked to see me to do this which isn't helping). I struggle to get out due to physical needs and I've lost the friends I had as my conditions have worsened (I've zero functioning for anything beyond food/getting medication and even those I go without some days due to lack of money) this is very unlikely to happen as I've nothing to say and no ability to do anything. I've no family to help. Social services were involved because I was told they could help but unfortunately I cannot afford the direct payments contribution (as I need that money for other essential needs not covered elsewhere and won't be covered by direct payments) so they can't help as the "financial assessment" doesn't take other disability related expenses into account they just assume you can hand over what they demand and I can't.
I don't think I've posted here about this before but I might have done, apologies if I have!
Thoughts?