Done all the things I’m told, still feel low

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I’ve had a bad bout of depression lately after it being under control for a while. I’ve seen the GP, got new medication which I felt was working until yesterday, I’ve organised therapy, I’ve spoken to my parents and even my friends about how I feel.

Like I said I felt like the medication was working until yesterday, a friend came over for dinner I had a nice evening and as soon as they left I fell apart and cried and felt awful again. Why is that?

Today I haven’t got out of bed until 11am. I feel quite numb - not the crying and crying that was happening last week. I’ve done everything I am told to do and I’m feeling down again and thinking (not planning) about suicide non stop. I’m on my own everyone is at work and I don’t know what to do to stop thinking this way and make my self feel ok again?

Hello OP.

The road to recovery is not necessarily a straight one. Bumps in the road are highly likely and it sounds like you've hit one. But given that your trajectory is sounding pretty positive overall, try to appreciate that this is just a bump and, I hope, just a short one, and that you'll feel better again soon.

That said, given the serious nature of your thoughts, is there someone you can talk to now? You say 'everyone is at work' - who is everyone? and can you call them anyway?

Thank you. I’m on fluoxetine only 20mg and the therapy is just a counselling session. I’m not sure what has triggered it I seemed to feel fine until my friend left last night and then once I was alone i just suddenly felt awful. I guess being alone doesn’t help but before that when I was alone I felt ok and hopeful. I find it hard having told my friends for the first time, in no detail at all and not that I am on medication so it’s possible they just think I’m ‘sad’ and don’t understand how bad it is. But I find it hard that everything just goes on and everyone else does - even though I know this is reasonable for them and I wouldn’t want them to be with me 24/7 or anything like that! I just feel that we are told to tell people as if it will help and I feel like I’ve done that and it hasn’t helped (not anything to do with my friends reactions they have been lovely and said they are always there and love me etc etc) and now I almost regret it. Ah
I am rambling I just don’t really know I feel right now

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