I don't know why I am writing this really, I suppose I just want to get it all out. I am struggling with my mental health at the moment, I feel very down, tired and just like I would like to take to my bed given the choice.
However I work full time in a demanding job and also have 2 children and a dog and my husband is a SAHD. I am on AD's, have been for years.
Anyway my 10 yr old DS has anxiety and recently he has been suffering - this manifests itself as stomach aches and sometimes sickness, we notice recently that he hasn't been eating his lunch when he comes home from school and I had been concerned about his general well being. My 10 yo and 7 yo DD argue constantly and I am trying to help them to get along better but its a work in progress - I think my DS in particular would benefit from time alone with me but it's really hard to manage that with work, the clubs that they both do and all of the other things in life that demand our time but only yesterday I said to my DH I really need to spent quality time with him - the only problem is my DD won't leave us alone so my DH said he would entertain her.
Last night my Mum came back from football practise with my son and started on about how he is unwell because we don't feed him enough, we should be making him eat more. I don't think we can force him and it is absolute rubbish to say we don't feed him enough. She said his portions aren't big enough - he didn't have as much pasta as his sister because he doesn't particularly like it but we like him to have it once a week as his diet isn't particularly good and is very limited. He didn't eat it all. The most annoying thing about all of this is that we have asked her not to give the children sweets and crips after school but she ignores and buys the biggest bags you can see. Plus fizzy drinks which we don't want the children to have in the week, only for a treat once at the weekend. She then went on to critisize my parenting a lot - I'm rambling. Our relationship has never been good and all this on top of my current concerns has made me feel very low - the truth of the matter is we have a VERY different approach to parenting and now this makes me feel again as though it would just be better if she didn't come around with the children a couple of days a week but we arranged a different way for her to see them. We will never agree and I feel undermined in my own home.
I just needed to get this down, although it probably makes very little sense but I am just too tired to write the whole version.