I don't know what to say when I go to my appointment.
I honestly have got to the stage where I don't know how I feel anymore, other than I can't go on.
I have been depressed before but self medicated (not healthily) and never saw a dr because I would have up weeks before the downs and just figured it was normal for me.
I now have a family and can't do what I used to do to cope.
It started with insomnia a few months ago. Now I'm tired all the time. I was very down and thinking everyone would do fine without me.
I know this isn't true.
Now I have a permanent head fog/buzzing/ear ringing, sudden headaches and I just feel numb all over.
I've been screwing up at work as I'm not hearing things because I seem to have retreated internally.
I can put a mask on and act normally but it's getting harder and its exhausting. But I can do it.
I just don't know what to say when I go in there.
I'm not having panic attacks. I'm not in tears all the time. I don't feel that black pit of despair I did in the past. I just feel completely removed and my head is full of fuzz and I cannot concentrate on anything. I'm also quite shaky.