Suffering from really bad anxiety with my partner

[monkeymai]

Hi All,

I have never thought about reaching out like this before so do bare with me,

I am a mum to an incredibly cheeky 2 year old, I run a start up and I have been with my partner for 4 1/2 years. For about 6 months I have been suffering from really bad anxiety, I can be rather anxious anyway with running a new business but that anxiety I can handle. It's the anxiety that comes from my partner. I am really worried it means I dont feel the same way about him anymore. When he talks to me, and it can be about anything, I get this little mini panic attacks inside, its incredibly strange and to me it seems ridiculous but it happens, and regularly. like everyday.
He could be on the phone talking to someone else and all of a sudden i start having palpitations. or he can be talking to me about topics im interested in and then i feel like I can't breath.

Its bad, I should probably go to the doctor but I have no idea what to say. I need some help because I am struggling to be around my partner? His voice has started to irritate me so much to the point I feel like I can't breath. I moved out three months ago because it go really bad and for a while it eased and i started to feel better. I want to work things out with him but I cant tell you how it feels when I hear him speak, its like my brain is crawling, its like a itch my body cant get rid of its awful. It doesnt always happen with every conversation but it does happen daily. Any body out there with some words of wisdom?

I have been feeling this way about my husband. I except I began to believe he was emotionally abusing me and became obsessed with the idea. After some soul searching with trusted people and a chat to my GP I increased my anti anxiety meds as I was becoming increasingly irrational and obsessive. It’s early days but it’s helped.
Having had anxiety and depression for a number of years I was able to recognise the thought pattern.
I’d recommend talking to someone you can really trust to be honest or and a healthcare professional. Living with high anxiety is so very very hard.

Ps I need to blame my anxiety on something external because if I remove the source I believe that it will get better but usually it doesn’t and the source is actually my anxiety

Hi, iv posted this on a different thread but thought I'd share it here too so you don't feel on your own as iv been feeling similar:

Hi,

I wanted to share my story and also ask for some reasurance in regards to some feelings I am having.

I started on Sertraline September 2017 after a traumatic family event triggered off severe anxiety for me. They worked really well after about 3-4 weeks. I flourished after about 2 months and felt like a completely different person. July this year I asked my GP if I could attempt to come off them. I reduced the dosage by half and then half a tablet every other day and eventually came off completely in September. I felt okay for about three weeks then around mid October time I really started to crash. I went back to the GP and they advised I go back on them as I was really in a dark place I was signed off work for a week. I explained to them I dont think I could ever kill my self but have thought about it purely because I cant go on feeling like this every day. When your in that place it just feels like there is no way out you completely forget who you are and I was struggling to get through a hour let alone a day. I was constantly wandering what if the tablets dont work this time. I am now 3 weeks going into my 4th week back on sertraline. It feels a lot harder this time my mood and obsessive anxious thoughts are getting better and I am able to work again. I said that I thought this had happened because I have had a lot of change in my life the past year, iv changed jobs, ended a relationshop, started a new relation ship and then leading up to my crash, was working 12 hour days and experiencing a lot of stress at work.

This time and the reason really im writing this is for some advise or reassurance. I wandered if sertraline can make you irratable. I never experienced this last time. As I said I am in a newish relationship and before I crashed I was so happy and in love and felt like nothing could break us... He has been very supportive and understanding through this period, hes the nicest person and we get on so well, and nothing has changed apart from how im feeling.

I feel like im getting very irrated with him when he hasnt done anything wrong. I refuse to beleive theres something wrong with the relationship because of how strong my feelings for him were before my crash. I feel like im stuck in a vicious circle of trying to work out if something feels wrong here with my relationship or if its just the anxiety causing obsessive thoughts again/ a reaction to the medication.

Can anyone relate, or does anyone have any advise?

Sorry for rambling, Thank You.

Thank you for posting that Dani, it helps me x

That's okay, have you found any relief?