Anxiety help

[MrsJ000]

This is my first post on here so please bare with me

I had my DD last year and she’s 11 months, planned pregnancy and had loads of support from family. All seemed really good.

So my daughter was 9 months old and I was planning on going back to work. However my home life became hell and I started to suffer with my anxiety and depression. Brief description, my mum is a alcoholic and is suisidal, I’ve found her on multiple occasions half dead. I found out my husband was having an affair and my daughter had health problems. Then to add to all this I found out I am pregnant.

I feel like my life is falling apart. Work are now hassling me about going back (coming out to my home l, facebooking me messages, questioning my pregnancy) even though I have a note from the doctor to say I am not well enough to work. I don’t know where to go. My gp has told Me to take a few weeks to relax (not possible due to work) and then go back to discuss treatment. I don’t want to go on medication as my mum believes this is where her addictions started and I honestly can’t see light at the end of the tunnel.

Any help would be great

I can relate to much of what you say about the anxiety and really do feel for you. It sounds like you have an incredible amount going on in your life at the moment, and sometimes that can feel unmanageable.
If you have a note from your doctor saying you are not well enough to work, then you are not well enough to work. Unless the people at work are coming to see you with a large bouquet of flowers and a 'Thinking of you - Get Well Soon' card, they need to back right off! Is it possible to give them an anticipated (phased) return to work date and have a rest from social media?
You are under pressure and need to look after yourself first. And your little ones next.
As an alcoholic in recovery myself, there is not a thing you can do to get your Mum well. She needs to do it herself. Completely.
You are powerless over her and her choices...as she is powerless over her drinking. You may find the help and fellowship offered through Al Anon to be a good source of support. I know that I would not be here were it not for AA.

Please feel free to message me if you want to talk.
With love and healing x

I can’t give them a date as at the moment the thought of even going to the shop fills me with dread. I can’t go out for panic attacks and I can’t concentrate to even make a cuppa! I ended up in a&e on Monday with a burn. I’m terrified to tell them it’s because I was in floods of tears and that’s how I hurt myself Incase they think I’m not able to look after my children

It sounds very much like thing have got on top of you.
I hope you are able to find some support to help you through this rough patch. It won't be like this forever. And no-one is going to take your children away from you.
Reach out and try to get some help - even in the form of a talking therapy. xx