Hi, not sure if this is the place to ask but would love some advice. I suffer from anxiety and self confidence issues and am starting to freak out that I've made a massive mistake.
Bit of background. I am a trainee accountant after changing career at the age of 30 (hugely proud that I managed to make that first step). It's slow progress as I'm a mum to a 4 year old so find it hard getting time to study.
I was working as an Assistant Accountant for a company for 2 years (my first role) and although I did a variety of tasks including analysis of income and quarterly reports, there was a massive blame culture, you were significantly overworked and underpaid as a lower level member of staff. It all began when my senior left and wasn't replaced, and then more people left and weren't replaced and we had to pick up the extra work with no increase in salary. I gave it my all, working lunchtimes (I know I'm silly but due to those self confidence issues, I always worried that I wasn't keeping up because I wasn't good enough so would work lunch to catch up)
I eventually decided to take the plunge and move on as I was drained, annoyed at the business and didn't feel valued at all. I've now started a new role and the atmosphere at the company seems nice so far. I'm frustrated at the moment though as all I'm doing so far seems to be more Admin based tasks and data entry. I know its only been 3 weeks but it's getting annoying now and feels like a step back. I'm not really being shown anything and it feels like whenever I ask if there's a rule or guideline to how something is done, the response is that usually we might do one thing but sometimes another. It feels like there's no agreed rule that everyone follows so I'm worried I'll struggle to learn.
I'm obviously still in that phase of wondering if I made the right choice, my anxiety is pretty high at the moment and now my senior has handed in his notice. Apparently he's always been open that he was intending to leave, but I'm not sure I would have taken this job had I known that within a few weeks the person supposed to be training me would be gone. It feels like my last job all over again.
I know they have to replace him as the team isn't big enough, but if someone new arrives, they won't know the system, the processes etc so I will feel all on my own again. I took the job as it implied that there would be lots of training etc and I'm concerned that that's all gone now and I'm having a bit of meltdown.