I've just returned to work from 10 months may leave. It's a fast paced high pressure job and I'm not coping - I'm so anxious again after only 4 weeks back. I suffered with anxiety a number of years ago before having my son. I had a wonderful mat leave, but now I'm back at work I'm totally overwhelmed. DS doesn't sleep and as much as DP does his share I can't switch off. I'm pulled from pillar to post at work, constantly being chased for this that and the other (it's our busy season and the entire teams workload is unmanageable). I feel like I'm on a hamster wheel, I don't know if I'm coming or going. Racing to childcare to work, back to childcare, to meetings, racing to get everything ready for the next day for myself and DS, catching up on work in the evenings and weekends. Work is making me feel particularly anxious, my job isn't 'life or death' or even that mentally challenging - it's just the amount of work I have to do/organise. I feel like a deer in the headlights and It's so counterproductive, which is then making me more anxious. I can't sleep i constantly feel worried, my tummy is all over the place.
I really need some help, I'm going to try and see my GP next week but I am considering paying for some therapy myself... but I don't know what would be best? I feel my anxiety is routed in low self confidence and esteem, but I have no idea why - I've been lucky that I've never had to endure any traumatic life events, had a lovely upbringing and family, never bullied or abused, I have a wonderful family, DP and son.
I'm so desperate to stop this controlling me, but I keep letting it take over. Any advice gratefully received