Complex PTSD support

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Background abused neglected by mum until the age of 15 also severely bullied at school, diagnosed with PTSD/ Complex PTSD tried to end my life twice fast forward and its affected a lot of things. I work with a care agency, one of the employees at the care home looked and acted like my mum who I suffered horrendous abuse from, the woman was a right bitch anyway but I didn't deal with it well and started to cry.

I had to leave the shift, as it just brought back lots of memories for me and I've asked not to return there luckily I still have a job and going to another place.
I am restarting CBT and have upped my anti anxiety meds just really embarrassed I got so upset.
Just wondering if anyone else has ptsd/Complex ptsd?

I’m going to see my gp next week about this, I am terrified of opening up. But I need to get a grip of this as my thoughts and inability to control my emotions are having really negative effect on me and my family. I was sexually abused at very young age by a female baby sitter. I witnessed my mother attempt suicide and fall into deep psychosis alone at the age of eleven with my baby brother. This involved her being sectioned. I was mercilessly bullied in my neighbourhood for having a mother with mental illness. Then I went on to endure a 25 year controlling relationship. These are just snippets.
I’ve ended my relationship recently and I am content and happy being alone. But these past events and emotions I had conveniently filled away are now haunting me. I have terrible anxiety and can go days without eating. I really struggle to trust anybody and I come across defensive and aggressive. People moaning in work about benign problems really irritates me. So I am finally going to see my GP I am absolutely dreading it.