Can I just go to bed and stay there or

[Mrsdarcyiwish10]

Run away and hide? I have agoraphobia and severe anxiety. After a lot of counselling I reported my abuser to police for historic abuse, after investigating and him on bail they decided not enough evidence to proceed. This was 2 years ago and since then I have had nothing but harrassment and threats from him, police gave him PIN notice but it just continues. Why did I report it! my children are now not safe and neither am I. My head is ready to explode and I keep crying. I don't know what might expect from this post. Just to get it out of my head.

Anyone?

Unfortunately not.... as tough as it is, you have to keep going

You absolutely did the right thing revealing the truth. The lie of abuse is a huge part of the crime itself. The lies and secrets allow abuse to continue so even though there was no conviction, you did something brave and right.
As for the present, keep reporting him every time he contacts you. Again, these people need to know they cannot go unreported. Please find the strength to keep reporting.
And as for you, you amazing woman and survivor and mother, allow yourself some low time. You don't have to be in tip top mental health all the time and especially given how things have gone. Give yourself a break, mentally. Of course your head is tired.
Ask for any family/ friend support you can to help with the kids while you try to recover - there's no deadline to feeling better. Just take what little steps you can to be kind to yourself. Xx

@caribari, your so kind words made my cry more, but in a good way, I'm being told I should not have reported it but it still feels like I should have even with the consequences.