Sorry... rant alert. I dont usually vent everything to the world, but things are coming to a head. Neither do I expect any workable answers!
But is life really this crappy? I have alot to be grateful for , I know. A great dh, 2 lovely healthy kids, a house of our own.
But.
I just cant shift the weight. I'm 2 stone 4lbs over.ds2 is 16 months, so no excuse there. I'm runnnig and eating fine, but its not working. I really dont have time to fit anymore in. I hate going outside, as I have virtually no clothes that fit (and I'm not wasting more money on bigger sizes; I have some and that will do). No one is ever going to look at me in a pub again.
The most sleep I've had in one go for 4 years is 5 hours, once or twice. I'm knackered.
Dh and me just dont have anything to talk about anymore; he'll tell other people lots of stuff, but then say he has no conversation for me. He's trying to be really positive re my training, but I know my weight is bothering him.
Why does everyone else have more time in the evenings? After doing essentials and the boys are asleep, I've got about 1.5hrs to do a run/bath/see dh before bedtime!
Why does everyone else seem to have more money? I dont want to be rich,just have a few bits and bobs.And not be overdrawn every month.
And everyone else has a babysitter close to them.
And why are my kids so messy that I have to hoover twice a day and it still looks filthy?
And why couldnt the local nursery offer ds1 a place instead of it taking us 1/2 hr to get there on the bus/walk?
Why is ds1 headbutting everyone these days?
Am I just selfish? is everone else happy being fatter and more boring, and content to talk about gardening and never have excitement or feelings?