So sad that this feels like forever

[ikeatears]

I'm boring myself with all of this. So anxious again, descending into depression. Functioning only with the help of short term prescription of diazepam until I can restart Sertraline. Waiting til Saturday when Dh is gear and I can take a few days of work.
Thought I'd beaten it but it's beaten me, yet again
Don't even know why I'm posting
Had a couple of glasses of vodka so self medicating with alcohol too. I'm pathetic. I'm sad. I pissed off that my life is being stolen again. I hate hate hate hate hate this😢

Here not gear

Sorry to hear how you're feeling. It is not your fault and please be kind to yourself. 💐

You are not alone..I've been well for a while now and then last week out of the blue I was hit with a brick of darkness. I feel so low no real reason but I feel alone.

I’m at that point too. I’m so sick of all the crying and not sleeping and trying to find a way around it and not having to explain how I feel AGAIN.

Sorry you feel crap too rhubarb. I've started Sertraline again today, feel really rubbish - sick and spaced but I know it doesn't last. Totally fed up with it. The thought of either feeling anxious or taking meds forever feels like a Hobson's Choice and that's so depressing 😢

Hope things improve soon OP. Maybe some counselling would help too?

Meds just cover it up sometimes, if you don't want it to come back use both meds and talking therapy. Also mindfulness etc. Xx