Helpless and hopeless

[Knit2purl2]

Going through pretty much the worst situation possible at the moment. I have no control over the outcome of what's happening and it's affected every part of my life absolutely massively plus under huge and very obvious scrutiny.
I've had mild low mood and anxiety for years, medicated with sertraline at a low dose and plenty of self care.
But now I'm drowning, upped the dose and on the waiting list for counselling but not working really, I feel completely flat, hopeless and want to give up.
Would more/different meds help? Or because it's situational is there nothing that I can do? I have to keep going for my family and trying to support others at the same time.

I'm sorry - I know this feeling too. How long since you upped your dose? This can sometimes make you feel worse before you get better.

2 weeks. I'm getting a lot of very intrusive thoughts - I'm sure I'm not a risk to myself/others but obviously distressing. Panic attacks, constant stomach ache, tired all the time and struggling to eat, basically I'd like to get into bed and never get out again.
I feel flat a lot for the time and otherwise just overwhelmingly sad

Increasing your dosage only two weeks ago could be making you feel worse for the time being. Try to remember that this is why you may be feeling worse, and that it will pass. What support do you have at home? Do you have a crisis number on hand just in case? You're not alone.

Husband and family are great but also going through it so difficult because I don't want to lean on them too much when they're having a crap time too.

I understand .
Keep posting if it helps. Intrusive thoughts are the cause of my anxiety too. It's so bad so sometimes. But will pass

Thanks.
Spoken to the GP and she wants me give the increased dose another week. If anything I think it needs to be higher.
Counselling has been refused and instead I've been offered low intensity CBT with a waiting list of a few months.
I have no idea how I'm going to make it through this week let alone a few more months

What meds are you taking? Increasing too quickly could easily make you feel worse.
I upped my dosage 6 weeks ago and questioning if it's making me better or worse. I have some of the same symptoms as you and dont know if it's my circumstances or my meds making me feel this way.
Try to take it an hour at a time. It's too overwhelming otherwise

Sertraline 100mg increased from 50 and zopiclone when needed.
Sorry this hear you're suffering with intrusive thoughts too, they're awful aren't they
I'm finding going out quite tricky at the moment- home feels like my safe (or at least safer!) Place

How are you doing, OP?

Made it through the weekend, took DS away and managed to be happy Mummy the whole time.
Now shattered!