Feeling overwhelmed with life !

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Hi I'm hoping by writing this down that it might help. I have a history of depression and am currently just feeling so flat, the joy has been sucked out of my life.
I've had a shit year, starting with a back problem in January. Since then I've had to close down my cleaning business because I can't physically do it anymore. I had a few months of very little income (Then benefits) and luckily my adult son has lent me some money though I'm not sure how I'm going to pay him back the £800 he lent me. I'm now in my 3rd job since July! 1st one lasted 3 weeks then I walked out cos it was a nightmare (long story) 2nd one I lasted a week, discovered I was only 'casual ' staff so no holiday pay etc. Current job, I'm now in my second week and it's killing me.
I ache all over, I'm stressed, I have awful trouble sleeping and I'm so so tired. I can't relax , I live alone and am lonely. Just everything is too much. The worst part is I don't feel I can get myself out of this. I'm comfort eating, yes I know it won't help.
Also feeling menopausal!
I've just stopped seeing my FWB as I've started developing feelings for him.
My daughter won't have anything to do with me and I've no idea why.
It's all just too much. I may ring the doctor tomorrow but it all feels hopeless.

Ring the doc's for an urgent appointment. Once that's done. Copy paste this post onto a note on your phone. Then add to it anything else that's bothering you .
Get washed /dressed and head to the surgery . Be honest. Brutally honest. Ask for help and they will help.

You have reached the bottom of the pit... now the only way is up ! You just need a little had to get there, but you will. Pause if you need to, just don't quit !

Try to keep your current job, as eventually the income will help lessen your financial worries and having money in the bank will remove one burden. I think to owe money and negotiate the benefits system is hugely stressful, so it's understandable that you are feeling low. Try to think of this as your way back up time. Your son helped you, you have a job and income.
What coping mechanisms do you have for getting more sleep/unwinding?
Yoga, meditation, breathing exercises? Anything like that?
Sugar and fast release carbs aren't your friend right now. They'll spike and crash your energy levels.
Are you taking vitamin supplements?
Honestly, lots of women would struggle like you if they didn't see their GP, get blood tests, take vitamins, reduce carbs, do gentle exercise, avoid alcohol etc etc. You are not alone! You need to be invest in your health and well-being. Baby steps and introduce things gradually.

Thanks to both of you. I've got an appt with the doctor at 3pm today.
're coping mechanisms, I don't really have any. I've tried meditation but it doesn't work at the moment.
I'm taking supplements, I've also got an under active thyroid. Last night I was still awake at 5am, got about an hours sleep! I've called in sick today. I wondering about asking doc to sign me off sick.
The thought of working from 4pm to 11pm was too much, esp after so little sleep. I don't drink much and am very wary of self medicating with alcohol. My biggest vice is food. I think blood tests would be a good idea, for my thyroid and B12. Will ask for that.

How'd it go ?

It went fine thanks. Got to go back on an additional anti depressant and having blood tests next week.
She offered to sign me off for a week, which I wasn't sure about. But she said take it and have a think about whether you want to use it.
I've decided to use it. Will pop into work tomorrow to give them the sick note and ask if they will give me some shorter shifts.

Great! You are on the way up!! Well done you! Delighted for you!

Thanks Numpty x

Hi ! How's it going ?