I can feel im on a downward spiral

[LEMtheoriginal]

Major and unexpected changes at work. May eventually work itself out but it is a wait and see situation. My anxiety doesnt allow me such luxury as wait and see.

Also relationship issues due to gynae problems.

I am on ADs and am supposed to be doing group therapy for BPD but it is during working hours and i cant see my employer allowing me the time off. AlsO MH issues are very much poo pooed and someone was recently signed off with stress and people were vile about her. I dont want time off work. But work has been the stability for me in life however it is goi ng to hell in a handcart (not just for me).

I can feel my mood plummeting and my anxiety is through the roof. Im scared im heading for another meltdown.

Hi LEM. Just wanted to offer some sympathy as I can really empathise with the spiralling feeling. Most important thing is that you've recognised it before it happens.

I have BPD. I have private therapy, but I do a lot of DBT myself in my spare time. There are some great self-help DBT resources online - will send you some links when I'm home. In the mean time vent away

Thankyou i am considering private therapy actually.

The bpd thing scares me. Only recently diagnosed but its the anxiety that gets me

I think work would be treading on thin ice regarding disability discrimination if they did not allow you time off to attended therapy (if it only available during working hours).
Do you have an OT you could talk with?

No pretty much been given the diagnosis and left floundering tbh. Am on escitalopram for anxiety. When my dr suggested bpd i was horrified but relieved as i thought i might be taken seriously but nothing has materialised.

That’s shit .

Do you feel up to contacting your GP or psychiatrist and ask to be referred to OT? At some surgeries you can self refer.

Have you at least been given the crisis team number for if things get really bad?

Yes have crisis team number but will never call them again. The woman read froma script and pretty much told me to plan a nice treat for the weekend.

No psychiatrist

You have been diagnosed by a psychiatrist and not just a Gp though?

Have you heard of the ice technique for times when you feel yourself getting completely worked up? It involves holding ice ,or somthing equally cold, on certain points on your body (back of neck, wrists).
Sounds daft but it really can be very effective in helping to centre and calm a person. If you google it you should find info on how to do it properly.

LEM I understand. I'm bpd diagnosed too but am too 'high functioning' for the therapy groups they run. It's a label that basically can mean you get written off and any kind of crisis is just seen as attention seeking.
Do try and live each minute/ hour/day and not think about the future - have you tried mindfulness?
Works if you can do it (I cant when I'm not well).
I am struggling at the moment and things at work, my rock too, aren't helping. Ive basically pushed everyone away who tries to help - they haven't been there when I need them so I can't see how going thro the motions every fortnight means anything.
Can't say much else to help really unless you want to push your gp to refer you to a community mental health team for support. With a bpd diagnosis you should be classed as complex and be referred for all the good it might do.
Hope you can hang on and things improve for you at work

Not seen a psych just a woman who came to my house

Do you feel the diagnosis is right?

I certainly dont fit all of the traits but many of them fit. But i reckon most people would though. Its the anxietyand overthinking that does for me