Feel like i can’t cope

[AlwaysSunshine81]

Hi.
Not sure if this comes under separation/ relationships or health!
I split with my ex last May. Met someone in September but have kept it very casual but expressed our feelings are stronger now. He isn’t ready to spend time with my 3 kids... I’m a bit unsure about the whole relationship as there’s been a couple of red flags for me recently. When I see him we seem to have a nice time together but we normally drink however I get anxious when I’m due to see him and start thinking I don’t want to see him.
I’ve been stressing for a couple of weeks about it now that I don’t need think I want to see him and maybe I need time on my own. I am drinking quite a lot which I want to stop and want to start eating healthy as I feel fat. I go to the gym 4/5 tines a week. I want to change my life around.
I don’t sleep well cos my little one wakes me 2/3 night for a wee and I feel constantly tired. Evenings are boring and I sit and drink wine.
I feel hits depressed and don’t really know what to do. Sorry to rant but had to get it out

Just tell him that you've had a think and you have decided you would prefer to stay single and need alone time.I think you have to listen to how you feel and it sounds like you really don't want a relationship with him.
You don't need long explanations, just a breif text should be o.k. Could your little one start being trained for going to the loo herself in the night or is she too young?

What do you want to do in the evenings? could you do something crafty or loisten to music or read instead of drinking wine?