Very Depressed

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I am really depressed keep wanting to commit suicide really struggling not to. I don't have anyone that can be with me 24/7. My daughter is being really horrible to me saying she wants me dead and my son is lovely but currently refusing school on and off for ASD. I could probably just about get through without daughter to deal with. Just about to lose job. Just moved so know no-one and no other jobs round here in what I do. Not registered with doctors here yet. In past ADs have done nothing, its kind of beyond that. Have a DH who can look after kids though daughter being horrid to him too and he's on ADs. I don't know if I could go into hospital but fear they won't give enough help and will just send me away.

Other thing I could do is move back to old house where I have friends but would mean moving kids schools and would it be better. Are jobs there. Daughter would still be hellish though. Other house needs a lot of tidying too before could live in it. Friends would only be able to help odd hour but still an odd hour is sometimes all you need to take the worst of it off. My old doctor currently on holiday until Monday. Its not totally constant, most days its just crying all day. Thanks.

Could you get to the doctors today and register and say you need an urgent appointment? Is there anyone you could speak to for a bit of support, even just a cuppa and a shoulder? A friend from where you previously lived? A family member? Really sorry to hear you’re struggling. What’s your daughter saying to you? Has something caused her to behave this way, eg is she struggling with school, poor friendship group, etc?

This sounds very hard for you

I agree with Dancer; it would be a good idea to go to the doctors on an urgent appointment today. Having those thoughts counts as urgent and they will want to help you as soon as possible.

If the GP can't see you due to not being registered yet, find out if you can register there and then, or tell them where your records are and ask to be seen as a visiting patient to the area.

Antidepressants may be useful for you and there are many types you can try. They work differently for different people so it is unfortunately a case of trying until you find the right one. That is very hard of course, but the sooner you get started taking one, the sooner you will possibly experience a helpful result.

You could also try:

NHS 111 (in England) by dialling 111, or NHS Direct (in Wales) on 0845 46 47, or contact them via their website on 111.nhs.uk/

Samaritans
116 123 (UK)
116 123 (ROI)
Email: [email protected]

SANEline - www.sane.org.uk
0300 304 7000

If you feel you may act on your thoughts of harming yourself, you can go to A&E.

I think it's England wide at least ( not sure about Scotland and wales) but look for IAPT. You don't need a doctor to refer you you just ring up and they will help to get you the most appropriate support. There can be long waiting times for some services so I'm aware it may not be much help immediately, but long term the support I have received from their services has been life changing.

In the meantime, the Samaritans will listen to you for as long as you need. If you feel you are in serious danger of hurting your self ring 101, or take your self straight to a&e please.

Get help for your self first, you can't help everybody else until You've sorted your self out.

Ive been there and the way you are feeling is awful and so lonely . As mentioned above go and see the doctor speak on here or the above helplines just to give you ways of talking your thoughts through. Sometimes it can feel rally isolating and oveewhelming but please let pople know how you feel so they can help.

Thanks so much for replying. Called GP even though not registered and they said to call 111 option 2. Made many calls, got quite distressed as phone lost not being answered still after 20 mins x2, DH came home. Tried again after 30 minutes got through and spoke for a while. I can self refer for CBT but will be few months wait, there's a place tonight that's open everyday but you have to phone each day. They are getting me appointment for tonight. But doesn't solve issues of DD, no jobs and nothing to do. Really want to get out of here. Though need to make sure I am thinking straight. Lady suggested housework, maybe not.

We are not exactly sure why DD is behaving like this just says seeing me makes her angry and she's a psychopath. Lady thought she might be struggling with change.