Can’t do this

[Strugglingalone]

Curled in a ball crying, there is no one who will help, I don’t know what to do now

I’m sorry
I shouldn’t have posted

Don’t be sorry. Of course you can post. But to feel different you need to do something different. You must seek RL help.

There is no real life help

Really struggling

There is. GP or crisis team or Samaritans or A and E.
I get it. I hate using the phone. But nothing will get better if you don’t seek help.

They don’t listen

Can’t do this, completely alone, no one will even notice

They will listen if you are clear about exactly how you’re not coping. If you feel suicidal you need to be explicit and tell them so.

If you don’t want to speak to anyone you could text or email the Samaritans.... it will be easier maybe ?... main thing is too remember you wont feel like this for ever, everything changes.. feelings change.. take each hour as it comes...

Yes people will notice. Is there anyone you can talk too? Parents? Siblings? Relatives? Friends? X

Still here for you op.

I don’t know what to do

I’m invisible, no one will help

We're here OP. We will listen to you and be here to hold your hand. Please don't give up. You can do this. One minute at a time.

They won’t help if you don’t contact them and say how you feel.

And they won’t help if I do

Spent most of this evening being told I am wasting their time, that I am making it up, etc

No help available

Who did you call?

Op how are you feeling today? I do hope you contacted someone. Literally no point in saying nobody can help if you don't reach out to someone! Sorry if that sounds harsh but it's true and people on here are only saying this because they care.

Op how are you today x

I hope you're ok - I've been thinking about you today

Really struggling - I have been reaching out but had my feelings disregarded so what’s the point!
Our local Crisis team has 2 levels, the level anyone can ring for support and then the official ‘crisis’ level. I was completely ignored yesterday - throughout the course of the afternoon/evening I rang them countless times (I would guess into double digits) but I was completely disregarded, the phone was put down and I was told that I wouldn’t follow through with my plan and I was wasting their time! They would put the phone down minutes after I got through, therefore not able to have a proper conversation or receive any form of help
I was told to ring the Crisis team/ 111 myself but I can only ring certain people (them and my gp) due to a severe phone phobia which they are aware of so they completely isolated me
Previous experience of a+e has been very distressing and made me significantly worse so not something I would ever consider

I hope to be able to speak to my gp tomorrow but have difficult work hours so unlikely, I just don’t know what to do - I am desperate for help but just keep being turned away. Things are really difficult and I’m scared it’s gping to escalate out of control again

I’m currently crying because I have wound myself up so much that I can’t get to sleep - and now I’m panicking because I am panicking which sounds utterly ridiculous but can’t calm, just getting worse!

You’re not well enough for work. You must prioritise your mental health. Your plan must be something you agreed surely? You need to call the right person.

Are you on any medication op?

How are you doing now OP? I understand the feeling of being desperate and knowing services won't help or the 'help' will be anything but helpful I can't change that, but hope you feel a bit better soon, and am here to listen and chat.