Always sad

[jogalong]

I would love if anyone could give me advice. I am going through a real sad phase at the moment. My parents live 4 hrs away and i only see them twice or 3 times a year. I cannot travel due to work/ school/ child with special needs. And they cannot travel anymore as they are a lot older now. Everytime i see them i see their frailness and see them ageing greatly. My heart is breaking that i cannot be there for them. All their children are living far away.
I alwsys thought id be able to live close to them and be there for them but life has passed and its not an option now.
I feel so low and down about this and think about it all day. I feel its taking over my thoughts and making me cry a lot. I feel like im not myself. So down in the dumps. I hate even the fact im aging myself. Feel so old, and sometimes wish i could go to bed and never wake up.
Sorry for long rant and i know theres no solution.

This sounds tough, I’m not surprised you’re down about it. It is a tricky situation. I’m sure you’ve gone through all options/obstacles of visiting, but is it worth running them past us folk here... can you leave your DC with their other parent at all? Take a day or two off work somehow? Not ideal, but even if you had to tell a white lie about them being ill and you needing to go.

This might not be feasible, but how about setting you parents up with FaceTime?

I do appreciate the issue runs deeper than this. Would speaking to your siblings help?

For your own well being, step up the self care - exercise, diet, meditation, treats, sleep hygiene, whatever helps you.