Crying and sinking into hopelessness help

[NameChangertoday89]

We have no money. I have schizophrenia, bipolar and anxiety. Meds aren't working. I am crying all the time feeling like life is always shit and relentless. I need some support. I just feel like a dead weight. It's hard to cheer yourself up when most things require money or petrol. I have an A-Z of support groups but can't go to any of them coz they cost money. I see everyone around me living their lives getting on with things and I'm stuck in this personal hell that I can't get out of. I'm just crying my eyes wondering does life ever get better if you have a long term mental health problem or is this it?!

Why do you have no money?
Do you have children?
Do you have any pets?

I have BPD too, which is mostly controlled through huge amounts of medication, but my real stability comes from a stress free life - not something I have ever managed by myself! I have a very supportive partner and luckily no money worries. By which I mean we can pay all of our bills, not that we have £100s to throw around every month.

Some things to try:

Make your home as tidy, clean and clutter free as possible. Scrub kitchen and bathroom/s. I find that a tidy home leads to a tidy mind.

Construct a routine for yourself. Not necessarily a timetable, but things like: make your bed when you get out of it, put a load of washing on every other day, have a shower every evening. Just little things that will help you to feel that you are staying in control of your life.

Get outside every day for at least 30 minutes, regardless of whether you're town or country. Walk 15 mins one way and then 15 mins back. If you're likely to be moving through lots of people then stick your headphones in and listen to a podcast or something.

If you're feeling so bad, are you sure that your meds are working properly? Are you under consultant care? It might be worth getting them looked at again.

Have a look at www.peopleperhour.co.uk. You might find that you have some skills you could advertise.

Finally - I know full well that you need to be functioning to manage all of the above. If you feel that you can't manage all of them, just make one change a week. Also - you're not alone. I'm sitting here in bed, knowing that I need to vacuum, empty the kitchen bin, walk the dogs, go to the vet for flea treatment....I honestly don't know if I'll manage any of it. It's too tempting to hide away today and not face the world.

I hope you feel better soon

Thanks for your reply. I called the crisis team left a message for my consultant then went for a walk. I choked back tears but the walk really helped me in fact I think just getting out of my house helped me. I then sat down and wrote a list of what I was thankful for which helped me further. I've just showered and changed and I'm going to put makeup on and paint my nails. Self care was the key I think. I also think my meds aren't working so have asked for a callback. Thanks for posting x

Can you get a free bus pass OP? here you can under pension age if your ill enough. You just have to get a form from the bus station and the Dr signs it and you send it back. You would get one here no problem.
If not then can you get a cheapish bike and ride to your support groups? that's what I'd do.
I think you need to get out of the house OP as a start. Have you made sure that you are getting all the benefits that you are entitled to as well?

I hope you feel better soon OP. My sister has schizophrenia and often feels down about the same issues you are facing. Have a pamper night and try to do little things that make you feel better. I think speaking to your doctor is a god way forward.

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