Feeling really depressed don't know what to do

[Penguinsnpandas]

Feel so depressed at the moment. Been ill for about a year physically getting nowhere with doctors and work won't let me work. I have no purpose anymore. There's no prospect of getting better. Just moved so got no friends here. Children are older and can manage without me. Daughter being really horrid. Son is kind but just can't stop crying. Scared to get help but scared to be on my own as I am so down. Run out of sick pay at work.

Don't want to read and run, am hand holding until someone else pops by with some good advice.

Oh penguin I am so sorry that you are feeling so depressed.

Is your depression being treated?

Maybe ask for a counselling referral?

Are there any groups online or irl that can help support you with your illness?

Ps does your work have an occupational health department?

Thanks so much. No treatment. Didn't feel depressed until a few days ago but its gone to very extreme from OK so no treatment. Work do have OH but OH made me sign off before.

Was made to sign off start June and then decided to buy house closer to DHs work with better schools as DD very unhappy at old one so June to mid July busy sorting that then summer holidays so kids at home and moving in. Then work wanted me back but still feel physically ill, doctors not much use, just say as not cancer must be pyschological but not convinced it is, got symptoms of Lyme and had a bite and got rapidly worse when under less pressure. Though I could be wrong. Asked doctor to sign me back on he said no but won't treat for anything. I am not getting any better with just rest.

Daughter was being so horrible yesterday, she gets like this some time, just screaming at me. DH just gives in to whatever she demands. And now DS is hysterical about going to school, he's got special needs and just started secondary.

I need to find something to do really but I am not really the housewife type of person. Plus DH is really tight with money, need my own.

Oh you poor love. Things seem a bit scrambled at the minute if that fits. I don't know if you've seen your GP about this business of possible Lyme's disease. If not then you really should as you could be worrying unnecessarily. I think a lot of us worry about illnesses that we don't actually have.

The depression (which I totally get) as I have suffered on and off for 8 years and it's the devil's own illness as far as I'm concerned. I'm a bit confused though - are you saying you h ave just become depressed very recently. Have you been depressed before I wonder so recognised the symptoms? Again if you feel you are depressed you need to visit your GP - make a list of your symptoms as it will help when you see the GP. It won't be anything that he/she hasn't heard many many times before.

Is your daughter teenaged -she shouldn't be allowed to scream at you and I wonder why DH gives into her. Oh Lord and a son with special needs. It's small wonder you are feeling so down.
Do you have anyone to support you in RL - I hope so.