halfyorkshiremanhalfessexgirl ·
09/09/2018 22:23
Things I thought up til this weekend were just down to my 'bad character'
- drowning in clutter
- being either in doing stuff/making a mess mode(frequent), or full on tidying up cleaning sorting mode (less frequent). Not being able to even close a cupboard door when in doing mode.
- knowing full well what my faults are and what i need to do to make my life easier (following routines, putting things away as soon as I've used them,) but just not being able to do it
-constantly losing things
-forgetting things
-fidgeting/doodling/tapping
-being chronically impatient
-talking fast
-not listening to other people properly when they are talking to me
-interjecting
-finishing peoples sentences
-not being able to finish mine, forgetting the perfect word, getting other people to help me remember by giving clues as to the word
-reacting emotionally to things out of proportion - this could be excitement or anger
-talking too much in social or work situations
-telling people my life story (that one is from mumsnet not some netdoctor but it chimed so much with me)
- CHAMPION procrastinator
- focus & absorption on interesting projects, struggle with mundane tasks
- addictive tendencies, risk-taking
I could go on.
So i know that you cant diagnose yourself on the net but learning that other people experience this and the shame and self-doubt that feeling like you are different, a fuck up for not being able to behave like a proper adult brings
and that its actually a 'thing'
thats more important to me and real now than any star sign or personality type or any such stuff
cos even if i just sit here with the knowledge that this isnt just my bad character but a set of behaviours i might be sharing with perhaps 1 in 20 people out there.
a difference, not all of it bad. that makes me feel a bit better.
I have read some of the historic threads on this could you enlighten me if there is anything recent. Its all very new to me. Ta.