Hi,
have name changed for this but am a long time user and occasional poster.
I have a few things going on at the moment and I am not sure if they indicate a mental health issue - depression or disassociation or it's just life and wondered what others thoughts were.
Things that I have going on:
- blank mind, I just can't think of things to say, I worry about maintaining conversations unless they are about personal/social stuff, I feel boring
- no interests, I have none and nothing much seems to interest me- I go and do different things but I just don't feel any passion or excitement
- irritable
- lack of empathy or willingness to put myself out for others- something I used to do without a thought
On the other hand I have friends, I go out socialising, I plan things to do, I work full time in a management position in a demanding job, in no way am I hiding in bed and unable to face the world- just feel like I am not really engaging with anything, just going through the motions.
I think I have been like this for a while now but only recently have started to feel like maybe it's indicative of a deeper problem.
So as not to drip some life events, which I feel like I have handled ok but maybe have not done as well with as I think- dad died just over a year ago (mum quite a long time before that), marriage ended 8 months ago- currently divorcing, i think I am also peri menopausal- could these things be linked to that??
Thank you if you made it this far, I don't want to go through life with this feeling like I'm on the surface and there's nothing behind that, or more depth to me- it feels very empty and whatever I do to try and engage I just end up feeling blank!
Welcome any thoughts or stories of anything similar.