Not coping with motherhood

[greenkiteZ]

I've just given birth to my third DC and everything has just become so shit. I'm constantly depressed, I cba looking after my baby, my other children get no attention. My middle child constantly cries and moans and whines. My older child just throws toys constantly, answers back and shouts at me.
The house is a tip, I've no money to do anything nice with the kids not that I even have the energy.
I wish I was dead

Oh sweetheart, I really feel for you, this is a tough situation, please use all the resources you have, ex fiancé, GP, this WILL get better

Where are you in the country? I would happily come and help you. You sound worn out and overwhelmed. I'm not surprised you're feeling awful - anyone would in your situation I think.

Honestly, if I'm nearby I would be happy to help.

Op your Health Visitor can help and refer you to services that can offer practical support like getting you a double pram. I used to work for a local service that did similar and I was always applying for funding for things like that for the families I supported. The HV really can help, have you spoken to them? Hope things are better soon x

Oh bless you, you sound at the end of your tether and understandably so. Please go to the gp, you don’t have to put a label on it but you do need to seek help. Are you any Facebook local groups/ selling sites? People are often giving away prams to good homes for free or next to nothing, if you posted you were looking for a double you may find someone has one in their loft that they’re happy to give away. Worth a go. Are there any children’s centres near you? They often have lots of free activities and would be somewhere free to take your children and you can semi relax while they are occupied. Hope things get better for you soon. Speak to your ex about him looking after the children on a regular basis, even if you can’t make it work between the two of you he still needs to do his share. What is your relationship with your mum like? If you reached out to her and was completely honest about the depth of your despair would she not try her best to help you out in some way regardless of how exhausting her grandchildren are?