How to stop trying to plan and control EVERYTHING

[SKL1994]

Not sure this fits into mental health but I have struggled with depression worse than ever this year and now I am starting to feel better I have found myself doing this. Trying to plan and predict and organise and control everything from money to time (eg how much time will I have to work/socialise etc when I start university - and trying to plan it despite not even having the job yet) I have had a declutter of stuff which felt good and was needed but now I find myself thinking I need to declutter my phone (photos apps etc) and feeling stressed and unsettled when I forget to do it

It is making me constantly unsettled and feeling like I have something to be doing or figuring out and unable to relax. Even though I am happier than I have been for a while, this constant organising/controlling thing has started to feel like a bad thing rather than a good ‘I’m getting life in order and being organised’

How do I relax a little and learn to go with the flow/wait and see, a bit more?

I have no idea really but following with interest. It's always a fear of something isn't it. Maybe you fear sliding back again? It sometimes helps me to do the whole 'what's the worst that could happen if I don't do x', 'and then what would happen, and then what' etc etc - normally makes me realise it really wouldn't be that bad and I'd find another way. I've also found it helpful to have more moments of being present and not thinking about the past or future - even just 5 mins a day of meditation/yoga can help. I was skeptical but it really does. Also realising that you will handle anything that comes your way.