I am having/have had a nervous breakdown. Tried to kill myself have self harmed and am pretty much broken.
Whilst away this weekend my daughter announced to me that daddy has a new girlfriend and they have been on day trips together. I am utterly distraught. He lied to me, introduced her to the kids without telling me then let out 6 year old tell me. I am in pieces. Even though he was an abusive ass when we were together I feel like he has just left me all over again. I am crumbling to pieces, I am a mess anyway and this has just pushed me over the weekend and edge.
When I confronted him he said he had been seeing her a while (since last October I believe) but didn't want to tell me because of my delicate state?! I've only been like this a few weeks yet he introduced her in April when I was doing really well, had lost weight, got a job and was finally getting happy. I'm so upset by his lies and using our daughter as a messenger because he knew how much it would hurt me.
I can't cope anymore, I'm a terrible mother, I can barely function and am having to rely on my parents to help me. I don't know how I can get through this, it's all a mess and I feel so crushed, broken and alone.