Want to go home-but I’m already here

[Trollhunter]

Haven’t had this feeling for such a long time(started antidepressants about 18 months ago for severe anxiety that I’ve had all my life, and they’ve changed my life). But tonight I’ve just felt ‘odd’. Anxious, agitated. I was out and have dashed home at the first opportunity. Something I used to do ALOT but again, haven’t had that fight or flight urge in so long.
Is this likely to just be a one off? Hope I don’t still feel this way in the morning.
I’m sat in the garden now, trying to just chill out.

I hope you feel better in the morning

I was probably on meds for about 2 years before this stopped happening but tbh it depends on the situation

I had some diazepam because when the odd attack hit, it did used to be quite full on - I mean not as full on as pre-meds, but still enough to make me feel like "OMD I can't get on the Tube" (which I have to for work).

do you have anything, or anything herbal? Hopefully now you are home you can just relax. tbh I often find being at home is the answer to these things!

I don’t want to feel like this. I Feel ‘on edge’ like I’m worried about something, but there isn’t really anything to Worry about. Very strange

The meds kicked in after about 3-4 weeks for me and have been brilliant... until now

first things first
there's a recent thread about a medication that seems to have a bad batch going round - is it yours?

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/_chat/3323754-I-m-convinced-my-prescription-medication-isn-t-right

if not....

is it that "I don't know how to even be" feeling? I would pace around.

I totally understand, if that's any help. It's just a blip I expect.

also the longer lighter hours and things used to mean I felt like I had too much mental energy if that makes sense.

speaking of which, I really must go to sleep, but hopefully this reply will bump it and you will get some other responses. I really hope you feel better ASAP.

I had no idea other people got that 'want to go home but I already am' feeling, it's horrible isn't it How long is it since your last meds review with the GP or CPN? Just wondering if your dosage needs adjusting, worth checking out if it carries on. Did you get any CBT for your anxiety, just wondering if you learnt any techniques that might help settle you for tonight? Worth a look on YouTube for mindfulness videos if not or if you're really struggling you could call 111 and see if they can put you in touch with the crisis team. I'll be around for a while yet if it helps to have someone to talk to, hope you're ok

I hadn't seen that thread Lighthouse, awful to think how many people could be suffering without knowing why. Could it be this with you OP?

My tablets ran out the other day, I was away so I got another packet off my friend. I take 10mg citalopram and she had 20mg tablets which I’ve been breaking in half. They’re a different brand to mine. Started those 2-3 days ago now. Do you think that could be it??
Thanks for all your replies. Really appreciate it 😊

yes a lot of people notice a difference between brands

but are you sure they're citalopram as well? Not to sound mad but they could be escitalopram?

That could easily be it, OP. Unless you can think of some other trigger. I know how awful it is.

OP, you have almost certainly hit a snag by effectively discontinuing your usual medication and taking another. The internet is filled with posts about people who've lost precious healing ground by unwittingly taking either another brand or splitting pills thinking it would give them the same dosage as their usual tablet.

As a previous poster has advised, take something to relax you if possible while you get this sorted out so that you're back on your usual tablet. There's a reason we're advised not to share prescription medicines with others.

also OP you really need to keep on top of your prescriptions - can your Dr have them done automatically for a period of time?

Citalopram is not one for sudden alterations - you will feel unwell again very quickly.

As today has gone on, I’ve felt better. Had an afternoon and evening with family and friends(and pulled a sicky in work!). I’m now in bed with a cuppa and chocolate.
Hoping tomorrow has even more improvement. Will be making an apt with my GP for the morning though to get my usual prescription. Don’t want to take any chances!

Glad things have improved for you Trollhunter, sounds like you had some cozy moments yesterday :)

Best of luck getting your prescription sorted out today, hopefully you'll soon be back on a more even keel

Thanks. It was a nice day. Just what I needed. Didn’t need the fuzzy head today though! darn gin 😊