Sat crying on a saturday afternoon

[onemoresmartie]

I start a new job on Monday which I am really looking forward to. My boyfriend is a chef and our living situation is awful at the minute so we are barely spending any time together and it's awful
I am so skint I can barely afford to leave the house

Just feeling very sorry for myself today and feel like everyone else in the world is spending their Saturday doing fun filled things with their other half's and I'm sat here staring at the walls crying

😞

Hey smartie. I can't offer much advice but didn't want to read and run.

I know the feeling. I used to HATE weekends. I've been a stay at home mum for years, sometimes with no partner, so weekends were no different to weekdays, apart from being busier and I felt extra lonely.

Hopefully your new job will be a turning point. Make sure you treat yourself with something when you get your first pay packet!

It's ok to cry and it's ok to cry and not know why you're crying. On the outside I "have it all" - four lovely kids, a nice house in a pretty village, I'm getting married three weeks today to a good man. But I have a lot of demons and my life certainly isn't perfect. Sometimes I cry, but Sertraline has helped a lot!

Xx

Good luck in your new job, hopefully it will make you feel a lot better and give you some spending money x weekends can be hard and lonely for a lot of mums and I have been there too x also on sertraline, it's magic! Sending you a hug x

Been crying for over an hour now while DH has a nap. I tried to go and lie with him but as soon as I looked at his wee face I started crying again - I am so horrible to him sometimes and hate myself for the way I speak to him. I'm 33wks pregnant but TBH that's no excuse. I was the same before pregnancy. I don't know why I do it and I'm can't seem to stop myself. He doesn't deserve it and one day he's going to walk. How do I change? I hate my personality and don't want to be me.

FedUp - I am the same, so don't have the answers sadly. A bitch to DP sometimes and he doesn't deserve it. My only advice is don't mention it on the Relationship board - I tried to ask for help and was annihilated. Ironic that women telling me off for being mean to my DP sometimes were being absolute bitches themselves.

Congratulations btw! Are you having a boy or a girl? We're hoping to TTC from October, but I'm ridiculously nervous

Thanks for the tip Why are people like that? It's not like I enjoy being a horrible person. I'd love it if I woke up tomorrow with someone else's brain and personality.
Don't know the sex - we decided to keep it a surprise. I've had a pretty decent pregnancy to be fair, can't really complain too much (other than about the heatwave!). But the mood swings and emotional strain have been hard. Although, Ive always been like that. Hence the problem.

I have no idea. Fair enough I'd posted about how much I enjoy being horrible. But I specifically said I want to change and need some help and just got attacked!

Aww, don't say that. I'm sure you're an amazing person and other people think so. Your partner obviously wants you to be the mother of his babies :) I'd love to have a surprise, but I don't think I'd be able to resist!

I'm the same re mood swings. Crap isn't it. I just get so short tempered sometimes!