I feel like an absolute idiot asking this because I’d be the first to say ‘seek help if your feeling down’
But I’m not feeling down. I feel ridiculously happy, but so anxious and nervous at the same time. My heart beats so fast I have to take deep breaths just to slow it down. I have so much going on right now and there’s no definite answers to anything and I’m bizarrely going out of my mind because I don’t do waiting and I don’t do maybes. I cope with day to day life by planning defines and knowing what’s coming next.
In more detail, my nans had a lump removed from her breast, biopsy results came back yesterday and apparently they ‘didn’t take enough’ so she’s having another op on Thursday. I don’t know if im not being told everything or whether thats genuinely what’s going on, either way I’m anxious and feeling helpless. I don’t know how to cope with stuff like this. It freaks me out. You’d probably call me one of the lucky ones but I’ve only ever encountered 3 deaths before, my great gran, great Nan and great aunt. I was too young to understand two out of the three and I coped unusually well with the other.
I’m also feeling anxious about the fact my 4 year old is going into reception in September, to put it in short form, she’s ready and I am definitely not.
There’s a few other things but just the usual worries, money etc.
I just don’t know whether I should seek professional advice about any of this or whether it will pass and I’ll be fine again in a few weeks. I don’t really know who to talk to without feeling silly!