I hate myself

[Grumpbum]

I’m on Venlafaxine 150mg
I’m self harming
I vomit most nights
I took an few too many pills the other night but was sick before they could do their job
I feel like I’m
In a bubble and I am
Standing next to myself. Seeing GP Soon to discuss work etc whether I can go back but I fear going back might send me over the edge

I have 2 perfect kids
A brilliant H
A good job

I’m on the waiting list for help but I’m worried

Scared to tell the Gp about taking too many pills, what if they take my boys?

God I’m a waste of space

Wow I feel lonelier than ever

Could not just read and run. Have you thought about calling the Samaritans? Sometimes it really helps to talk a little.

Hi. I feel for you I really do. I'm in the same space at the moment. I have a lovely H 2 lovely kids. I feel so down some days I can't function. People say to me 'what have you got to be depressed about' so unhelpful. Please be aware you're not alone. I think the last thing they would do is take your kids. If you're open and accepting of help then the GP will help you. Accept any help they give you.

Please please seek support. Is your husband supportive?xx

In contact with the Samaritans but I still want to go despite my lovely support network

I’m not good at words but many people, including me, have been in your position and it can get better. The belief that it can get better is about the only thing that got me through (aside obviously from the prescription drugs and hours of therapy in my case)

Best wishes.

Thank you I feel on the edge of tears but I feel hollow at the same time

Thank you, I’m just tired of being me

you most definitely are not a waste of space! your DC think the world of you!
Help is there please don't be scared its not nice but they do understand, we've found lots of them have had MH in the past and 'get' it

Hope you find some help and support x