Mother with BPD

[McPeppaMcYumPig]

Currently having help to deal with Borderline Personality Disorder and wondered if there are any parents out there with BPD ? As understanding as my partner is I want to connect with other mothers, I don't have many friends and feel the online communities real help me.
I feel at the end of my tether at the moment, constant battles with my health. I've been ok mentally wise recently but baby has started really teething and I'm finding it hard work.
To top it off I also have M.E , this hot weather triggers it off so I am in so much pain. Guilt is eating away at me cause I'm having to put baby in the bouncer a lot so I can sit down.
I keep getting Chronic thrush which is being investigated as well so I just feel awful and want some womanly support
I know there are people in the world with far worse problems then me but I just need some support from anyone suffering BPD and M.E .

I'm sorry I can't really help but I suffer with BPD myself and it is horrible. I think everyone involved with someone with mental health needs some kind of support group. I know how draining we are. I'm sorry to hear about your conditions also. I have a baby so that makes things harder. I hope you get the support you need

ThanKyou, I am recovering at the moment and getting discharged next week from weekly visits from a nurse. I am feeling relieved in a way but also very nervous incase I breakdown again. Every day is a battle with myself. The thing the scares me most is loosing my temper around the baby :(

Why do they think you have BPD? I don't get mad with my baby, mine is always with my partner. I go a certain time doing so well then I flip out and lose it. I'm glad you are getting discharged but that's also scary because I always then feel unsupported and lost

Years of different diagnoses (depression, ocd, anxiety) have had therapy etc and it's BPD though have signs of ocd too! What a roller coaster... never would loose it with baby but I think it's the fear if I do and it terrifies me so much, I too loose it with my partner...
Been really bad recently lots of arguments and finding it very hard to use the techniques I've been taught to help with the extreme intense emotions .

What is bpd exactly? If you dont mind measking

It is short for Borderline Personality Disorder.

Yes i know that peppa but what does it do to you x

Sorry@niketrainersarecomfy !
It causes extreme emotions that are very intense and erratic throughout the day for me. That is what I find the most difficult x

I have PBD2 and DF has BPD1 and as such have been deemed high risk of post partum psychosis by MH services.
Thankfully I've been stable for a long time and have managed to avoid PPP but I have had wobbles.

I read BPD as bipolar disorder, sorry.

@FairfaxAikman glad to hear you are doing well

Sounds awful peppa sorry. Do you find mh services support you?

@niketrainersarecomfy they have only started supporting me seriously since I had a baby, I had a mental breakdown after my baby was born where I was hospitalised and they have been brilliant and supportive...but Before that I was fobbed off a lot by gps and put on different meds over 10 years . No one took the time to really tackle what was going on !! How are you x

Sorry peppa. Do you get stigma from mental health services or are they supportive?

Sorry thought it hadnt posted!
Im ok, it sounds hard to have. Were you diagnosed after having your baby? I hope you feel better now

@niketrainersarecomfy I wouldn't say I have experienced stigma from the services no, where I do feel awkward is health visitors had to be told what had happened to me , and they kept ringing wanting to come and check on me. At times they made me feel like an unfit mother...it made me feel very ashamed , whereas the nurse who visits me is always very full of praise. That's the only bit I found difficult.

@niketrainersarecomfy it's a very strange and hard to explain mental illness to have...after years and years of doctors not being sure weather I had a few different problems this is the diagnoses that does really fit and I have had a lot of help for recovery. I was diagnosed after having my baby yes, I'm glad it happened when it did to be honest or I think I would still be here struggling or worse so very thankful to the lovely team who helped me .

Im glad your experience is good.