I am not coping today

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I don't know what has triggered me today, but my anxiety is so high, I feel like I just want to throw up.

I have tried everything I can do today to try and make it a bit better, but nothing it working. I am not sure if it is because my routines are out of wack (OCD) but I have a lot going on, also have been put on a new drug, but have only been on it 2 days so am fairly sure its not that.

I was hoping just writing it all down might help, but it hasn't, not sure what I was hoping for from all this, I am safe and not planning on doing anything. I just want a normal life, not feeling like I am going to be sick, or my heart is going to come out of my chest

Hi OP.

I hope you start to feel better soon. I understand the suffocating feeling of anxiety xx these are for you

Thank you, I appreciate the flowers

I hope you can get some sleep, tomorrow is a new day x

Thanks Frozen,

Its not looking likely at the minute, but you never know

Hi there

I'm not by best self today either, so we have each others company at least.

I'm not expecting sleep, it's been difficult for a couple of weeks now (it's always a challenge but sometimes I'm on top of it, occasionally I lose the battle). Last few days have been eventually sleeping sometime around 10am, despite being so knackered all night. Of course then lose the day, healthy patterns and so on.

What are your new meds? Some have a week or so adjustment period and a sudden hit of anxiety is a typical symptom.

For me, I've been pretty rubbish and not kept up my healthy positive life habits (I know blaming myself doesn't help here, but it's hard not to when feel rubbish!), so I've gotten into a bit of a slump of not coping by my own doing, or not doing.

I didn't feel like going out to pick up a prescription, ridiculously, I'm well enough to go out and I live somewhere pretty, I just felt blah so didn't. I think I'm a day or two into not taking a prescribed med. It's not dangerous to stop but I'm not sure if it will work out better (goodbye side effects and don't need them anymore/making no difference) or whether I'll hit myself with withdrawals and then have to start them again, hitting myself with adjustment of taking them again!

It would be nice to just sleep huh?

The lying awake is when I really start to get upset and find myself wrapped up in thoughts of all sorts of upsetting things that are best left away from me!

Morning,

I fell asleep round 5am, DS came in at 8am.

I am on Lithium now, I was on Valproate but I couldn't cope with the side effects.

Woken up still feeling bad, I am going to potter round the house this morning, see if I can get my routines back on track. I usually find if I don't keep to my routines, then I get anxious, which in tern leads to me being depressed and we have so much going on, I can't let myself get too down.

Also if I can help it, I would rather be busy, then nap or think about things.

I hope you both managed to get some sort of sleep

Here's a for you, I hope today is better for you

Thank you, I am going to need it to get through the rest of the day :)

Just wanted to say I’m thinking of you and wishing you well. Take care and look after yourself

Thank you user

Hope you are feeling a little stronger

I have managed to eat, which I don't think I did yesterday, I am feeling less like I want to throw up, and I have been keeping myself busy, plus I spent half an hour curled up with my dog, which always helps

Be kind to yourself

Hi guys, didn’t know other people out there suffer with ocd type anxiety too. It feels so lonely when everyone around you can snap out of things and are so normal. Would Anyone care to share their ocd with me and what theirs is. Mine centres around health anxiety lots of love to you all we all really need it. No one understands how different we feel

Mine is routine based OCD, my anxiety is not related to it as such, however they all have a knock issue with each other, so its difficult to seperate them