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I have been feeling bad for some while. Lately I have started seeing things turning to other. For example today at shop I "saw" a rotting corpse on the shop floor. My pulse went up and I was terrified but seconds later I noticed it was just potato sacks. I have been seeing rats and other negative things.

I have been quite a while without these but they are coming back.

Are you on mrdication at all?

Yes, on loads. Couple of moodstabilisors, antipsychotic and antidepressant. Things started to go worse after I stopped pregabalin. I was on high dose. Psychiatrist wanted me to stop pregabalin.

Ring the crisis team. I had this called illusions and was the start of psychosis.

That is interesting about the pregabalin my dr has suggested it for me.

Its bpd you have isnt it LEM?

I will contact cmht tomorrow morning.

Pregabalin was a good med against anxiety, but I felt increasingly tired and gained over three stones.

Justthrone - so they tell me. Although im not convinced. They assessed me and said im "on the spectrum" but slightly - what does that even mean? I read about the weight gain and pregablin i think ill give that a miss i dont need to put on any more weight.

I hope you get sorted out OP probably worth mentioning xx

I think bpd is only diagnosed in the case of low functioning, ie cant work or have relationships, because it is quite stigmatised
Maybe you have quite heightened emotions, and it could help with that? Worth a go. I take quetiapine and gained 2 stone but im well x

Had a chat with nurse. She will email to consultant. Either I get appointment or medication is changed.

i have bpd (amongst other things) and take quetiapine, a couple of antidepressants and pregablin. i was originally on pregablin for pain (i have arthritis and knackered knees and had lots of surgery) but have kept it for reasons unknown.

i have just been diagnosed with under active thyroid, which brings me up to 16 medications. 16!

and, OP, if i don’t look after myself things can get weird. my sleep is terrible, and i have such awful recurring dreams (literally every night i go back into the same dream) that i avoid sleep as much as possible. when i’m really, really over-tired, as i am now, ‘reality’ gets a bit blurry.

i can hear something during the day that reminds me of something in a dream and then get lost for hours thinking about it, and can sometimes feel unsure about what is awake and what is dreaming, if you see what i mean. i also start to ‘see’ my mother everywhere only to realise it’s a stranger that maybe resembles her slightly. we’ve been no contact for 12 years so it’s unsettling, to say the least.

can you speak to your GP? are you under secondary mental health services, with a care co-ordinator? if you are, give them a call and speak to Duty if your own care co isn’t about. if there’s no fast help there, call your GP, or 111.

i’m at the point where i don’t know that anyone knows why i take all the meds that i do. i’m not doing very well at all, currently. i have a psychiatrist appointment in a couple of weeks. so i just have to keep on trucking, and use my numbers if i need help.

it’s all ok, OP. give someone a call and maybe ask for a full med review? it sucks that you have to, and i do understand. be well.

Yes, I called duty nurse at cmht. I am sleeping well at least. I hate these illusions because I get so afraid. When I see for example a wolf I just stare at it and my adreline levels increases. Little bit later I realise that it was something else. Then it takes a while to pulse go down. I don’t drive at the moment and I wouldn’t now because I just freeze. As a passenger I once saw huge white truck coming down the slip road. I froze and hoped that my Dh notices it. Well in reality there was nothing.

I forgot to ask how I will know what psychiatrists decides to do. They are really the best ones informing what’s going on.

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Have you had psychosis before?

I don't know. They just talk about "experiences".

Oh ok. Well it depends on the cause i suppose. Its unusual to be on antipsychotics without having psychosis diagnosed, but experiences Are Psychosis, so.
Mine are part of bipolar so quite obvious when my mood goes.

You should also have an eye test. I have an astigmatism and without corrective lenses I often mistake what I'm looking at as it takes me a minute to focus.

My eyes are ok. I had them tested in March.
I feel very fragile and unwell. I had promised to volunteer in my ds school today. I couldn't really cancel so I took some diazepam and hoped for the best. It went ok.
No news from cmht yet bit I knew to expect that.

I have to keep vigilant. If I loose my attention and don't think about those things they will come.

I wouldn't prescribe Pegabalin to anyone and there are numerous concerns about them and calls to make them controlled drugs.

Google Pregabalin concerns and you'll find numerous articles.

I had this with Citalopram. Took weeks after coming off it for them to stop. Speak to your GP about It, it may be the result of one of your medications.

I haven't had any other med changes after I stopped pregabalin in April. But I remember getting hallucinations from mirtzapine, mainly night time.

I went to see go yesterday. He put me on low dose of pregabalin because he thinks I was better on it. He will contact cmht, too.

Ok, gp sent letter to psychiatrist who then sent me appointment for next week. I am then abroad. I called app centre and they gave app for October! I called cmht and I might be seen tomorrow. I am leaving on Wednesday to holidays.

I am feeling awful but not depressed. Still seeing things but they seem to be happier ones and I don't panic. I have been trying to sort this thing for two weeks.