Depression & Anxiety

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It is so hard to get a doctors appointment, who do people go to now for help?
I have a lot going on and I seem to get anxiety about everything. I immediately imagine the worst situation and my whole brains switched onto preparation mode for the worst outcome. Now sometimes this is okay, it's only "what if there is traffic" and so I leave earlier. But I've started frantically worrying about what my daughter might be exposed to as a teen (she is under 5) and what life will be like if I don't get to have another baby and what if my partner dies at work. And some things are taking all my brain space. I don't sleep, I'm not concentrating when I drive, I drift out of conversations.
My depression has been made worse by all of this of course and now I am turning down friends. I just seem to want to cut off from reality, needing to escape somehow and run away from every one into a dark quiet place.
I don't know what to do or what to turn too?!

Hey, hugs. Anxiety sucks. Call the GP and get an appointment for as soon as you can. they will be able to help - there is medication that is useful for anxiety. Have a handhold until then

Have you booked in to see someone?
In the mean time, I think you should try doing a thought journal. From what I have read, it appears that you are experiencing automatic negative thoughts in response to situations (or the thought of situations).
This technique may appear silly and like it won't work but it is a very effective way of managing automatic negative thoughts.

The first step is to record the situation that the thought has occurred. It may be helpful to include details such as who is with you or whether you are alone, what you are doing, where you are etc. For instance it could be something like: I am at home alone doing the house work.
Next record your feelings. This could be "nervous 50%, tired 20% etc etc
Next record your automatic negative thought (unhelpful thought) ... eg. My partner is going to die at work
Now look at facts or evidence that support the thought, eg "There are so many dangerous things that could happen to him"
Now record evidence that doesn't support the thought, eg "My partner is good at his job and he is always careful.
Now think of an alternative thought, this is a more helpful thought, eg "My partner takes care of himself while he is providing for us"
Now re rate your emotion, eg 65% relieved, 25% worried....etcetc

You should aim to do this every time you feel an automatic negative thought come on, even if it is something as simple as "what if there is traffic"
Remind yourself that although there are bad things in this world, you want the best for your child and that is what will make all the difference in the world. To the world, you are one person, but to your daughter, you are the world.